in his life ( completed)

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four months since I've come back with Abel and two since I've become legally his mom which I can't thank Jax enough for granting my biggest wish. I've been seeing Jax cause I had finally agreed to dating him.

I mean I could blow his cock or fuck him like a bitch in heat but I'm not sure if he's gotten any std or anything.

we both keep that part of our lives private.

Yet something in me craves him so damn bad. it's like I've become a hell of a slut just with the pure thoughts of what I wanna do to him and have him do to me.

He's my walking talking sex dream.

every time I see him I wanna rip his clothes off and fuck him right on the spot without giving an fucks anything. 

But I've kept my slutty ass under control and focused on work and being with my son.

thought I'd not mind one damn but giving him a brother or sister. I mean shit, just thinking of carrying Jax's baby is an orgasm itself.

I have learned fully about Jax's life and what happens in the club and I really don't give a shit. I mean that's his business and I'm not gonna harp or nag him over it like a little kid that wants to get shit their way.

when he first told me everything he said I needed to know since I'm fully involved in his life I told him point blank that as long as he's safe I don't care what he does. and that he'd never have to worry about our son's safety. because I'm gonna protect him with my life.

Gemma hasn't taken too kindly to me knowing the shit that I do cause she feels as though I've still got a connection with the fucker that kidnapped Abel. and despite the number of times she'd been told and proof showing I don't know the guy she's pulling shit to try and prevent me from being with Abel. 

But I shut that shit down mighty fast. 

I told her that she's Abel's grandmother and I respect her for that. but she'll not fully get the respect she thinks I better give her unless she starts changing her ways with me and showing me respect.

Safe to say she and I got into and she fucking lost.

While she laid on the ground in pain and bleeding I told her to end the fucking horseshit about Cameron and me being linked some way and stop trying to keep my son from me.

now here I sit with Abel napping in his new room since Jax and I decided that if we were gonna raise our son together we need to live together. so he and I went in and purchased a house. 

I heard the front door opening and I looked up watching Jax come in and slip off his kicks.

"Hi" I greet before I walked over to kiss him not even thinking about what I was doing.

"damn baby that's one hell of a greeting," he says before he starts kissing me back.

"sorry..." I tell him

"No don't apologize" he says

"I am not wanting to come off like a slut or anything" I tell him

"your not" he says

"you sure?" I asked

"yea" he says

"okay" I say

he chuckles

"we gonna try that again?" he asked

"sure." I tell him

he pulls me close and wraps his arms around me and kisses me long and hard.

I hummed against his lips as he trailed his hands up under my top.

"I've been tested so you have no worries about catching anything,"he says

I nodded my head before I wrapped my arms around him and smiled

"Now I can do what I've wanted to do since day one" I commented 

and before he could ask what I mean Abel woke up and started to cry so I went to get him while Jax removed his Kutte, guns, and other club attire.