The Damage I've caused Goldcrest book #1

Here We Go

I had to try, I know that when I did this I'd probably get tossed out like the trash. Or maybe not he wouldn't do that he's too kind. Even if he wanted me out of his life and didn't want anything to do with me at all. I couldn't let him go through with this when I had unresolved feelings.

So I found myself in my beat-up old car, driving to his hometown because I needed to know, I needed him to know. This car had been my granny's, she passed it on along to my mother, and my mother passed it along to me. Shelby was a stubborn piece of shit, but she was my piece of shit.

I drove in silence the stereo had been long broken, I had the joy of hearing nothing but the sound of my car on the long road, and I had the pleasure of being alone with my thoughts. I'm crazy, a lot of people think that my mind ain't right. I just didn't have much to care for, not much to live for. I made impulsive decisions and got myself in a lot of shit.

I don't blame him for leaving, I can only blame myself, deep into my thoughts Shelby starts making a racket, well shit I say as I am forced to pull over. I get out of the car and open the hood shit this damn alternator. I go to grab my phone to call for assistance when I discover my phone is dead.

Well ain't I the luckiest gal in the world, I grab my wallet out of the car and lock Shelby up. Damnn it, son of bitch, Shelby you better not go anywhere I say before walking off to find some assistance.

After walking for miles I end in Edinburgh a town about six and half hours away from Goldcrest, the first place I see is a diner, As I walk inside the door chimes, "HI welcome to Patsy's what can I get for you" a beautiful brunette woman in her late fifty's asked while serving coffee when she looked up at me "You're not from around here are you?" she asked me " No I'm not I'm a few hours west" I told her " My car broke down a couple of miles away, can you point me in the direction of a mechanic?" I asked her.

" Two streets down, turn right on pike street is Jimmy's shop, you can't miss it, she told me before heading behind the counter. "Thank you," I tell her before heading outside straight to the shop.

Jimmy was able to have one of his guys pull Shelby to the shop, he located the part in the next town over, and drove to get it, but I wouldn't be able to get back on the road in while so I decided to crash in Edinburgh.

This morning I picked up Shelby from Jimmy's shop and headed back on the road after stopping by Patsy's for breakfast

Now that Shelby was in top shape, or the best shape she could be in I was once again on the road, alone with my thoughts. I wondered if it would be possible for him to be happy to see me, but that's just my imagination talking, he will be furious, at the very least annoyed.

Maybe I'm selfish, he's moved on, but I just can't let him get married without knowing if there's a small chance he might feel the same way I do. They say it's never too late, or never say never, I'm just hanging on to false hope.

I can't help but feel that this whole thing is not right, maybe he's found the one, but he left me 3 months ago, and I've missed him ever since. I'm going to admit it I love him, and I have to try, but if she's truly what he wants, and she makes him happy, I won't stand in the way of his happiness.

As I'm getting closer and closer to Goldcrest I feel my heart beating faster and faster, I almost want to turn around, but I need this, and at the very least I want closure.

I wonder if he's changed much, does he still make those stupid jokes that make everyone around him laugh, Is his smile still the most beautiful thing I've ever seen, will his voice still make me have butterflies? He probably won't be happy to see me, but this will be one of the hardest things I've ever done, I just want to at least see him one more time.

I drive past the Welcome to Goldcrest sign and drive to the local motel, I check in for the night and bring my bag inside my room, I take a shower, and change into jeans and a button-up wearing my brown leather jacket.

I take a moment to breathe before walking out of my room, I've been preparing for this moment on the drive here but my heart is racing, and my hands are sweaty, I haven't felt this way in a while, but I'm terrified.