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58.

Yoongi smiled awkwardly as he moved into hoseok's main hall, breathing silently under his anxious soul. It's been already 3 hours he had waited for the younger to take him Inside which the younger had did actually.

But now he felt dizzy. Walking in a cool breezy hall, made his guts churn more.

"Are you okay? I'll get you water" Hobi said as he moved real quick to certain direction.

Yoongi plopped down the couch, his head resting at the couch post.

"Here, have some"

Yoongi smiled feverishly when he saw Hobi smiling a little as he sat in his front.

Hoseok smiled and yoongi found himself staring, the smile was same as it was years ago. Big and full of love.

He looked more beautiful then before. Very pretty indeed.

The emotion he felt were so strong, guilt, regret sadness he was full of them. He remembered how he was so loved and how he just threw it away. The cuts on his heart burn like hell, reminding him of how foolish he was.

"You didn't have to wait there, it's too hot out there. You could have just went hom—"

"It feels like I'm home already tho. " Yoongi smiled.

He could see hobi gulping and fiddling with his fingers.

He then laughed awkwardly.

"Yeah... Right.. My house have a very homely vibes. "

"It's you. "

Hobi gazed up.

"It's because of you"

Hobi moved his head to the other side not letting his eyes meet the man in front.

"Yoongi why are you here?? " He asked.

"To apologize"

"You don't need too. I told this to Jimin and I'm telling you too. I'm not bothered, I'm not even angry at you. I have forgiven you a way before. So let it go. "

Yoongi moved from the couch to the floor sitting on his knees in front of Hobi.

"No, no hoba. I need to say sorry. I need to accept how shit I have behaved with you. I feel so ashamed to even come here and expect you'd forgive me, cuz I don't deserve you. I absolutely Don't"

" But I'm here. Hoba, I'm sorry. I am really sorry"

"What for?? It's been years" Hobi says

"Yeahh but it still hurts good"

Hobi hiccups as his tears continues to fall.

"Yoongi I don't trust you anymore, it's so difficult for me to trust you ,with whatever you say"

Yoongi nodds.

"I deserve it. I deserve all of it. I thought when I'll meet you I'll explain why did all that, I'll give you the reasons I had thought for years I'd give you. "

He cupps hoseok's cheeks , making hobi face him.

"But now when I see my baby crying with hurt, I think I deserve all the hate you'd give me "

To which hoseok Instantly nodds his head.

"I would never hate you, what are you saying"

"I hurt you a lot, didn't I? "

And hoseok laughs in tears.

"Ohh yoongi, you have no idea what damage you both did. "

"Let it out hoba. Hyung is here"

Hoseok holds him by his collar tiredly.

"Why are you even here??? To see how weak I am?? Yoongi I'm holding up everything since years. If you are going to just leave me again, plz don't break me"

"No, I'm not going. I'm not going anywhere love. I did that once, I left you once and for the next four years, I have woke up to dried tears, I have woke up too nightmares of you leaving me. So I won't leave today. I promise"

"You never loved me, didn't you?? "

"I did, with every bit of my body. "

"You fucking asshole , you said I was clingy and annoying. Do you know for the next four years it haunted me to even hug anyone, to even smile like I did. You took that from me yoongi"

"So now don't act as if you care. Cuz you don't, you just care about your ego. If you cared you would have stopped me"

Yoongi cries, his body shivering with the cold words.

"I was worried yoongi, I was so worried when I was calling you the night when it was raining. All I was able to think of you too, and what you did??? You blocked my calls cuz I was disturbing your sex???? "

"You fucking lost me yoongi, please leave. I don't wanna talk"

Hoseok stood up from his couch and almost running to his room, when he was wrapped in yoongi's arms from behind.

Yoongi nuzzled his nose in his neck.

"I'm not gonna justify myself. I did that yes, and I'm not even going to reason it at all. But I realize what I did. I fucking regret it everyday hoba. "

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry really. But if I can do anything to heal you back. I'm here I'm here now. "

"Yoongi, this is too much for me too take in , in just a matter of week, you both. It's difficult. "

"You both made me feel so unloved, I thought I deserved being not loved. So now I need you to leave me when I'm asking you too. I promised this to jimin. And I'll promise this to you too, I'll come back. I'll talk to you. Just give me some time to think."

" Give me some time to breathe through all this yeah?? I'll let both of you know my decision soon. Till then just leave me alone"

Yoongi pulls himself back.

"I'm fine with that, I'm fine with whatever you want. "

"Just know I love you. Not even in once I stopped. Yes I did shit. I did very wrong to you. But just give me this one chance to heal you up hoba. "

"Please call me when you feel like ok. Let me know if you want to talk, I'll be here. "

Hoseok just nodds.

Yoongi backs away his feet taking him back to the door.

For the last time he turns.

"I love you. I really do. I hope you forgive me. "

And like that he leaves closing the door behind him.

"I love you too, both of you. I never stopped. "