"Gylenn, please don't do this to me, love! I'm sorry, okay? I'm sorry!" I almost kneeled while begging him to listen to me. I cried harder when he ignored me and continued packing his things.
I hugged his back and sobbed. I can lose anything but him! "I love you, I love you." He kept on removing my hands from around his body, but I tightened my embrace and continued begging.
"Sarah, don't make this hard for us." He forced me to remove my arms, and as I looked at him, I no longer saw the man I loved; his eyes were swollen and his face turned red. "How could you cheat?" I felt a bang in my chest when he asked that question. I felt my world spinning, so I immediately held his hands, but he just pushed me away, causing me to fall to the ground. I felt pain, but my mind couldn't process his question: Have I cheated?.
"Gylenn! Please don't leave me alone!" I panicked when I saw him leaving with his bags containing his clothes. I followed him outside and didn't mind the rain. "Please!" I uttered and blocked his way by kneeling in front of him. I cried and cried, and he's just looking at me, disgusted.
"Sarah, we're over." He left me with my mouth half open, kneeling on the ground while raining cats and dogs. Little by little, I felt tired, so I laid down while looking at the grey sky. My eyes were blurry because of the water coming from the rain that was pouring hard.
I slowly lifted my arms, acting like I was touching the sky, and painfully smiled.
I didn't cheat; I was raped by my college friend and diagnosed with HIV.
I don't have a choice but to embrace the pain alone.
