You're The Reason[HarryStyles]

|Two|

Jinx pov

Tears kept on going. He forgot...He freaking forgot. About me. 

"Miss...the mall is closing, please leave." someone patted my back. I nodded and stood up whiping my tears.  "I'm sorry." the lady said and walking around and moping the tiled floor. I exited the mall. I had no ride, because Harry was my ride home. I sat on the curb bawling my eyes out. 

I got up and started walking home. Yes.. Walking. Which is about 30 minutes away. I had no choice. I clutch my bag to my shoulders and tugged my cardigan closer around my body. It was cold. I started thinking about harry, and why did he forgot about this date. He knew this was special to me. After all it was our FIRST DATE. yes.. first date.. We didn't have it last time because school caught us down.

New fresh tears started falling, where is he? what is he doing? i questioned in my mind. He will just have to ALOT of explaining. Just let him... Explain. You'll understand. As i've been walking about 10 minutes. I remember this route...it was kinda a short cut to my house about 5 minutes; so i took it.

As i stepped on my porch. I took the key under the mat and unlock the door. I headed in and shut the door. It was dark. I kicked my TOMS off. My mom is not even back yet from work. I tiredly walk up stairs to my bedroom. I dropped my bag to the side on the floor and fell to my bed. I felt myself cry even more. I curled up into a ball. 

I fell into a dreamless sleep. 

I woke up and the feeling wasn't great..knowing your boyfriend is just a forgetful person. I smelled bad. Dried tears on my cheeks. I whipped it off and hopped off bed then taking my knitted blue sweater and a skirt. I walked into the bathroom slipping off my clothes. 

I turned off the water and taking the towel under my arms. Tucking it close. I got out and started dressing up. I put my nude lipstick and eyeliner and the sweater with skirt. I brushed my now blow dried hair straight. I looked at myself. I still look horrible! my eyes were swollen and it looks like i havent had any sleep. 

I should take a walk. I climbed down the stairs; putting on my blue vans. I found a note on the bench as i walked out the door. 

'Went to work, sweety! Love you. - mom' 

I left it there and walked down the steps; going to the park.

I reached the park entrance and walked along the narrowed peaceful path. Until... 

I got a text message from my friend Nela 

From: Nela<3

To: Jinxxxxyyy:)

Hey, how was your date? ;) ;) xx 

i huffed. 

From: Jinxxxxyyy:) 

To: Nela<3

Horrible, ugly, lonely, yucky, depressing, pathetic and ugly. 

i sent the message. 

Seconds later i got a phone call from her. 

Jinx: What? 

Nela: What happened?

Jinx: He forgot about me... it was a NO SHOW.

Nela: THAT LITTLE F*CKING A** HEADED H*LE. IM GONNA F*CKED HIM UP!

Jinx: Haha, it's okay. 

Nela: No it's not.. You deserve better! im going to find out why!

Jinx: It's okay.. i think i already know. 

I hanged up as i saw him on the bench... snogging....with a blonde chick... which is... my bully.. ever since 5th grade. 

Tears picked up my eyes, hitting me even harder. My mascara flying everywhere on my cheeks.

I strolled over there. I was standing infront of them and they didn't even notice me. 

I coughed and once Harry looked up at me. I slapped hard square in the cheek. His eyes widen as he turn to look to me. 

"J-Jini.. " he whispered. I looked at the bimbo with a smirk on her face. "I guess, i'll leave you two alone." she got up and kissed harry on the lips again. Which hurted me even more. I looked down crying so hard. clenching my fist. "call me babe, and thanks for yesterday last night!" she yelled exiting the park. So thats where he was at.. with her. 

My heart ripped out and stomped, burnt, pieces. used. and dirty. 

"I-i-could E-explain." he quickly got up trying to touch my hand but i slapped him again on the face. I kept slapping him and hitting his chest. 

"Y-you You said You LOVE ME! " i yelled punching his chest. He tried to hold my arms down but i pushed him back. He fell back into the bench as his eyes started to get red. 

Regret flashing through them. 

I clenched my fist. 

"Where were you? when i needed you..F'cking up that slut? when you knew that date was so special to me....You wouldn't let me get hurt but YOU hurted me to most, You stomped on me, you violated me, you ripped my heart even though i gave it to you to take care of it. I thought you actually cared for me, just me.. i thought you were amazing, but i thought wrong.. You were my first love, and i actually thought someone loves me for once. A person who kisses you, and hugs you for who you are... not a person who just want sex and all that crap. I think thats just who you are. A Player, a person who would be so coldless yet can act to sweet and gentle. A angel but disguise as it, just another devil's tricks. I fell for you... i fell in love with you harry... well, like what they said...If you fall in love; dont.. because everything that 'falls' breaks.. i fell in love with you harry... and i trusted you harry.. i god damn trusted you...." i turn around about to walk away...

"Just like paper.. paper is like trust.. once it's crumpled.. it could NEVER be perfect again." i spat.

Thats it.. i walked away from him. just walked away. 

If he wanted a bad girl .. he should of just said it.

He wants a bad girl? Ill give him one.... if that's how he likes it. Ill be the baddest girl in school. Not those slutty kinds... ill be the opposite of me..

Ill be my own devil. 

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