Complicated Feelings

Chapter 2

Everything is fine.

Well, Kao assumes everything is fine; Up hasn't done or said anything to suggest otherwise, yet.

He'd texted Kao less than an hour ago, asking if he wanted to go out for lunch. Kao had refused, partially because he isn't sure what to make of what happened between them last night―though he supposes Up reaching out to him as normal is a good sign―but mostly because he really just didn't want to leave the comfort of his bed. Up had called him then, a pout in his voice evident over the phone as he asked to come over. Apparently he'd been sexiled by his roommate at the ungodly hour of 1pm.

So now, Kao anxiously awaits his arrival, the cartoon playing on his TV doing little to distract him from his thoughts. He pauses it and sighs, running his hands down his face. He may as well get this all out of his system now, so he hopefully has a clearer head when Up is here.

Right. So they jacked each other off last night. Not just that―they jacked off against each other. Dicks touching. Kao shakes his head furiously, squirming in his bed and squealing in mortification at the renewed embarrassment he feels from Up seeing him act like that―from seeing Up act like that.....

The image of Up looking up at him from his perch on the older's lap flashes in his mind: eyes dark and heady with lust, cheeks a violent flush, and the soft sounds he was making―Jesus, the sounds―

Kao groans, slamming a pillow over his warm face and willing it to swallow him whole so he doesn't have to face his friend after all of that. Still, it's probably best to do it now; if he hadn't invited him over he'd be left to his own thoughts and likely spiral into emotional turmoil worrying about the state of their friendship.

Was it a mistake? Kao doesn't know. He'd like to think a one-off event like that won't put any strain on their friendship, as strong and long-lasting as it is. In fact, he's fairly certain of it. Things could be awkward, if they make them, but just minutes after finishing last night, things seemed to return to normal.

Up had made off with Foei's prized tee shirt, making sure Foei and Karn both saw he was wearing it when they sought them out to explain the fight with that douchebag, intending to, in his words, "ruin their night." (Foei complained but ultimately let him get away with it, while Karn threatened his life.) They left after that, and Up and Kao instantly fell back into their usual back-and-forth as Up walked Kao to his room. Kao passed out fairly quickly after falling into bed, trying his best to not worry too much about the fact that Up's fucking meter had risen. Again.

Who knows how long Up has been parading around with a full meter? Maybe he has more control over himself and Kao has no reason for concern. But last night freaked him out so much, seeing what someone with an unchecked, overflowing meter can turn into. He can't let that happen to Up no matter what, even if he's nothing like that asshole and the risk of him doing anything like that is laughably low. Kao doesn't want to take any chances.

He needs to get Up a girlfriend to satiate his incurable lust. Goddamn, he'd really just hoped that he could just use this power to get himself one, but it looks like he's going to have to wait until he doesn't have Up to worry about.

Assuming he still has the power... Shit. What if it's gone as soon as it came, and he blew his one chance to pick up girls? He hasn't left his room all day, and he's pretty sure he heard Mean leaving when he was half-asleep, so that just leaves...

A knock sounds from the door, startling him, followed by several more. Actually, they just don't stop. He stumbles out of bed, steps into some sweatpants, and Up is still knocking obnoxiously. Don't his knuckles hurt?

"I'm coming!" Kao snaps. He makes his way to the door, running a hand through his bedhead as he pulls it open. "Jesus. Should've left you to the mercy of the streets."