Losing Control

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AN: it's been a little while since I wrote a story, so I apologize if it's not that good or not written that well, especially in the beginning.

"Welcome, to the wonderful tales of my life sucks."

Astrid looks out the window of their bedroom. "Who knew journaling could be so hard..." With a sigh they put down the leather journal their mother had gotten them for their birthday. The only reason Astrid was starting to journal is because their therapist had mentioned it could help work through their traumas. And maybe he was right, Astrid just had never gotten into writing and still found it hard to now, but they were willing to at least try.. If it meant they could get better for Winter..

Astrid gets up from their desk and grabs their vape, sitting on the bed and taking a hit.

"You know one day that could kill you right?" Conner asks from the doorway. Conner, Astrid's twin brother, was holding a cup of water. He walks in and sits it on Astrid's bedside table. "Figured you need something other than monster."

"there's nothing wrong with drinking monster" Astrid sighs, blowing the vapor at Conner with a playful smile. 

Conner just shrugs. "You should still drink some water too."

Astrid sighs again, knowing that he's probably right. A few minutes of just sitting there Conner adds, "Aero's here by the way."

"Oh? Why hasn't she came up yet?" Astrid takes the cup and takes a few sips of the water.

"Fighting with mom."

"About us?"

Conner nods. Astrid takes another few sips of water before setting the cup back on the nightstand. 

Aero is their older sister who was able to escape their mother's abuse, but unfortunately couldn't bring Conner and Astrid with her like she wanted. Now she comes over once and a while to see her siblings, but always ends up arguing and fights with their mom for her younger siblings who can't leave just yet.

"we have one year left" Astrid looks over at Conner. "I appreciate that she wants to get us out, but really there's no point at this point."

Conner shrugs again. "They know what we go through, lived it herself.. So it makes sense that she tries so hard."

"I know and I appreciate her trying, but I'm sure we'll get the same shit she did and mom will come up with so many excuses for us not to leave." Astrid takes another hit off their vape. "But God I can't wait to get Winter and I out of this fucking dreaded town."

"How are you and Winter doing?" Conner asks, laying back on Astrid's bed.

"we're doing well" Astrid smiles to themselves, thinking about their beautiful partner. "I actually have plans with them tomorrow afternoon."

"Does Winter know about the vape?" Conner asks curiously.

"yeah, she vapes too" Astrid looks over at the door after hearing footsteps coming up the stairs, Conner also now was focused on the doorway.

"you two get downstairs now." their mother appeared at the door. "Go say hi to your sister."

Astrid had quickly hidden the vape right before their mother appeared. Both twins nodded quickly and after watching their mother go back downstairs, followed behind, Astrid closing the bedroom door behind them. 

Astrid smiles over at Aero and goes over to give her a hug. "I've missed you Aero..."

"I missed you too Astrid..." Aero hugs them tight, knowing that they're struggling. "Let's go out to dinner-"