Broken soul

CHAPTER 10- undone

I woke up to an empty bed again.

But what was I expecting?

I look over the clock and see it's already 11 AM.

I slept quite late today, without wasting any time I hopped out of the bed and made my way to the bathroom.

I washed my face and looked at myself in the mirror and.......and my eyes widens.

I-I... I've scars on my body!

I look over my arms but see none but when I look at my reflection in the mirror, both my arms and neck are covered in scars.

Panic starts taking over me and I strip naked in front of the mirror to see if I've scars anywhere else and my whole body.....my whole body is covered in scars. Whip marks, biting marks, cuts, burns, purple-blue bruises.

I touch my reflection in the mirror and that's when I feel something dripping from my eyes.

I must be crying but I see blood drop on the white sink.

Am I..... I touch my wet cheeks and my fingers..... they are covered in my blood.

I look in the mirror again and see myself crying blood tears from both my eyes.

Shivers went down my spine and step back and hit the wall.

I let myself fall on the hard marble floor and curl myself in a ball.

This is not happening

This can't..... not here

I know I'm hallucinating

This is not real. This can't be

It usually happens when I'm locked in my room for days without food or water.

But I'm not at home now, this is not home. My parents are not here.

Why is this happening now?

A sob rises from my throat and my chest starts to ache.

I-I... can't breathe....my tears are choking me

"Paris, you need to mature up or we will teach you a lesson," my parents' words ring in my mind

"Paris" I hear them say my name again and again

"Paris" I cover my ears not to block the voice but it's too loud

"Paris"

"Please leave me," I cry covering my ears

"Paris," but this time the voice is different

"Paris it's me" it's not my parents

"Paris" its...it's Enver

I feel my body shaking a little and I wake up sweaty and a big mess

I look over my surroundings, trying to catch my breath

"In and out, in and out," I look over my left and see Enver trying to soothe me

I do as he says, breathing in and out

I sigh and look over him with tears in my eyes.

It was a dream. I-I was dreaming and he saw me like this.

He must think-

"Hey, You good," he asks me rubbing my back a little

I want to explain things to him but no words come out as if someone sewed my mouth.

That's how mom used to threaten me, if I ever complain she'll simply sew my mouth.

My parents are getting in my mind

Enver sits straight with the headboard of the bed supporting his back, he slips his hand under me and pulls me onto his lap

I wrap my legs on either side of him and bury my head in his neck.

"Shhhh, it's all OK," he says and caresses my hair

It feels good

After a couple of minutes when I come back to my senses and pull back and look over him

He's staring back into my eyes as if he knows what I'm about to say.

"You don't have to right now"

I nod and still look at him, his hands slip to my waist, and other cups my cheeks.

The Pad of his thumb touches my lower lip and I close my eyes because of this new sensation.

I feel him getting close to me, I feel his breath.

"Open your eyes Paris," he says in a demanding tone

I close them tighter, I don't think I can stare into his eyes if he's this close. I might do something I'll regret

"Open your eyes Amore, I want you to see me," he says in a much more seductive tone and caresses my lower lip with his thumb

I open my eyes slowly to see how close he is

I open my mouth to say but he's quick to put his index finger against them

"Shhh. Just tell me if I have your permission to kiss you," he asks so Casually yet making me feel butterflies

Yes. Yes. Yes, I want to scream.

But I simple nod to which he says," words Amore,"

"Yes," I say against his finger and he removes them quickly before grabbing me behind my neck and pulling me towards him.

Our lips meet and dance in rhythm like they were 2 lost partners craving each other.

Kissing him felt like fire.

Or maybe I'm a lot of fire

I feel this weird warmth all over my body, especially between my legs.

A weird sensation I've never felt before.

What is he doing to me?

He pulls back and starts kissing my jaw and then my neck.

My neck....shit

He sucks at my sweet spot and I let out a moan

Shit Shit Shit

He pulls back and looks into my eyes but before I could do anything. He gives me his best smirk before sucking the same spot again and again

Fucking vampire

I don't know what got into me but my hips start moving on their own.

"Fuck," Enver whispers before grabbing my waist again with his hand and moving my hips in a rhythm

This....it feels....euphoric

He pulls away and we both stare into each other as he guides my hips to move

"Fuck, you'll kill me like this Paris," he whispers before withdrawing his hands from my waist

Noooo, I..I.... it felt too good to stop.

I look over him and I think he knows what I want and I'm embarrassed that I've led my actions to this point.

"I know but I don't we should. Especially not right now," he puts me beside him and tries to stand up from the bed

He can't leave me like this, not in the middle

I grab his wrist," But-"

He kisses my knuckles," I've blue balls too Amore," and he kisses my cheeks before rushing out of the room.

I fall back on the mattress and close my eyes.

How did I Let it happen but he left me in middle?

I imagine his face while we were kissing, his stupid smirk to Complete what he left undone.