Into you

I was still thinking about what happened yesterday.
Everytime I see Sapnap now, I just want to put my lips on his again. But I can't, it would be so wrong to start to get more attached to a fan.
We still didn't talked about what happened, we just continued "living" together.

I had the perfect plan for tonight, but I didn't told Sapnap anything about it. It's going to be a surprise.
I heard in the news that today will be some shooting stars at the sky and so I decided to watch them with him together at my favourite place in this city.

"Can I borrow a hoddie from you again?" Sapnap asked me, after I told him, we'll go out later. I nodded my head and he went to my closet.
"I forgot that you have your own merch collection. When you dropped it, I didn't had enough money to buy it." He said, a little bit sad. "You can keep it if you want. I have literally 7 of them, hahah." He looked at me and asked if I'm sure and I nodded my head.
He smiled and pulled the hoddie over his black shirt. He looked really cute in it.

"Should I be scared?" Sapnap asked me after I refused to tell him where we are going to, "No you don't. And I still won't tell you where we are going to."
Crossed his arms infront of his chest and I laughed.
We put on our shoes and I directed him through the dark city.

When we almost were there, I told him to close is eyes and took his hand. My fingertips started to tingle, when I felt the warmth of his hand.

We slowy went towards a bench and sat down.
"Now look up and open your eyes." I told Sapnap.
He did what I told him and looked straight at the dark sky who was covered in millions of bright stars.

"It's...beautiful..." he whispered and leaned his head against my shoulder.
I stroked his soft brown hair and looked at the stars.

"This is my special place in this city. I always go to this bench when I need a break from my stressing life as a streamer, or when I'm sad. Now it's not my special place anymore...it's ours now." I said and drew circles with my fingertips on his back.

"Karl, can I tell you something..?"
I turned my head to look at him. "So, I told you that I was questioning myself a lot lately..." he stopped talking and awkwardly cleared his throat. "I...think I don't like only...girls." I saw a tear rolling down his cheek after he confessed that to me.

"Please do not cry. Look, I like boys too, so there is nothing wrong about it." I said and put 2 fingers under his chin, to make him look me in the eyes.
He looked down on the floor again and continued saying: "But...there is something wrong with it. I think I like you...more than a fan should like his favourite streamer." Now his cheeks are covered with tears who dropped down on his pants.
He looked at me and said with a whimpery voice: "Karl, I think I like you more than a friend. I think I'm kinda...in love with you. God, this is so embarrassing."

"More embarrassing than me accidentally covering your whole hand in my cum, after only kissing for a few minutes?" I asked and we both slightly laughed. He smiled and whiped a tear away. I always know how to bright up his mood

"And Sapnap? I never thought that I'll ever tell you that but...I think I kinda felt in love with you too."
I started to smile awkwardly.

Oh lord everything in this situation is so fucking wrong. A streamer shouldn't get attached to a fan in that way.

It was silent for a long time, till Sapnap finally broke the silence: "I think I felt in love with you, the moment where we first cuddled in the hotelroom..."
"I think I realised that I like you more than a friend, when we sat together on the bench and you said that I'm beautiful, straight in my eyes. I knew from the beginning that you have a soft spot." I mocked him to light up the atmosphere.

I leaned my head agains his shoulder and he put an arm around me. We got closer, till our knees touched each others.
It's hard to say if we are still just friends or more.

I looked in the sky and saw a bright flash. I pointed at it: "Look, there's a shooting star." "Now you can make a wish." He said with a smile. I smiled back and didn't realised what I was saying: "I don't have to, I already have everything I ever wanted."

Sapnap looked me in the eyes and everything just felt perfect. I put my hand on his cheek and our heads started to get closer and closer. Until our lips almost touched each others.

Sapnap wanted to say something, but I already put my mouth on his.
The kiss was soft and I never felt happy like this in my whole life.
After a few minutes, our lips left each other.

"Maybe it isn't that wrong to be in love with a fan..."

End.

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This was my very first Karlnap fanfiction.
I want to thank you all so much for all the support you gave to me.

Every nice comment motivated me to continue writing this story.

I hope you enjoyed it. I love you all^^

~Fia / Cloudavp