The ferris wheel

The shower

POV Maya
We all get out of the truck and everyone is quiet, probably still shocked about what happened. I am too, but I just don't show it. "Maya let me check you, you're not walking straight " Ben says. "I am not straight anyway so.." I continue walking. That's the moment when Theo started giving the sermon I really deserved. After that Beckett give me a second sermon. I was so tired and just agreed. I go upstairs and join Carina in the kitchen. "I might be pregnant" she says. "What?" I look at her. "Yeah I have been hungry all the time so that's a good sign" she says. "That's good" I say. I am so lucky to have this woman, after what I did, she stills talks to me in this gentle way. And I am just a brat, treating her like shit. "You know I am gonna take a shower and then I am gonna come home" I nod. "Yeah bambina you should, go home, sleep in bed, with me" she says. "That's exactly what I need" I give her a gentle kiss and walk off to the bathroom.

POV Carina
A little sprankle of hope went through my body when I felt her lips touching mine. I join the party downstairs. I look at little Pru, she's is so so so cute. "I wanna eat her" Andy says while standing next to me. I laugh "yes she is very cute". Andy looks at me "have you had a chance to talk to Maya?" she asks. "I have seen her, she said she would come home, but we didn't talk about what happened" I tell her. "Now everyone is here, shall we get upstairs to talk about it for a second? I mean we should do something. I only have been thinking about Gibson, while Maya my bestfriend also needs help" she says. I nod and we both go upstairs.

POV Maya
Sitting in the shower. Not even bothered my clothes getting wet. I take my shoe off. That toe and ankle is hurting as hell. I sigh. What did I do? Not only today but all these years. What did I do? What am I? I don't wanna be like my father. I am such a bad person. I cry. Louder. And louder. Thinking nobody hears me.

POV Andy
Carina and I take a seat at the table. "Look Carina, I know why she just walked off when she reached the ground at the halloween fair" I say. "I saw her crying, and believe me Carina, I have known her for years, and it is really rare to see her crying" I continue. "The moment I saw her crying is the moment I realized she really needs help. She knows I have seen her "weak" side and she didn't want you guys to see it too" I say. "That is how she is" I look at Carina. Suddenly I hear some noice out of the bathroom.

POV Carina
I nod while listening to Andy. She is right. I have seen Maya barely cry. I don't wanna see my bambina like that. "Do you hear that?" Andy asks. "What?" I look at her. She stands up "come with me". I follow her to the bathroom door. Then I hear it too. We look at each other and I immediately know that is Maya crying. "Go in" Andy tells me. "I'll wait in the kitchen" she says and walks off. I go in. The sound of her crying breaks me. I open the curtain. "Bambina" I say while turning the water off. She cries. She couldn't hide it anymore now. It was to late anyway. I go sit next to her, not caring everything was wet. I take her in my arms and feel her body shake while she continues crying. "Shhhh, it's okay bambina, I got you my love" I say and kiss her head. I try to hold my tears and be strong for her. I have never seen her like this. I have never seen her cry so hard. I have never seen her not care that I saw her crying. The only thing I could do right now is hold her and comfort her.