let me love you - jaylor AU

the calm before the storm

- taylors pov - 

«Bend forward, jump back into downward facing dog» I tell Joe and he follows my lead. I convinced him to try yoga with me this morning, and it's hilarious to watch him fumble with it. He is really stiff and it's fun to see him struggle. 

«This is torture Taylor» I groan, and he keeps following my lead through the moves we are doing. I'm even taking it easy on him today, but he still seems to struggle. «It's fine Joe. You can do it» I say but inside I'm about to burst into laughter. 

After half an hour we finish and Joe collapses on his back and I can't keep the laughter in anymore «oh Joe. You can't handle some simple yoga moves?» I tease him. 

Crawling over I straddle his waist and lay my hands on his bare chest. We have been getting closer and closer, and I'm not scared to be close to him. We fall asleep snuggled together at night, he holds my hand when we walk around school and all throughout the day, he steals random kisses. The feelings inside are growing each day and I know I'm falling for him. 

Falling in love was something I thought was out of the cards for me, after all I was destined for an arranged marriage, but Joe showed me something else. With him i can see a different side of life. We started out as an arrangement but now I can't see my life without him. It hasn't even been a year, but he has made his way into my heart and taken permanent residence there. 

The scary part is that neither one of us have talked about our feelings in that way. It seems to be a topic the both of us are avoiding like the plague. On my side I know I'm scared he doesn't feel the same way, but I don't know what's keeping him back. It's all confusing. 

«Are you feeling me up Mrs. Hamilton» Joe grins and me and I move my hips to grind against his groin making him groan. «One day you're going to kill me Taylor» 

He grabs my waist to pull me down so our lips can meet. We are both sweaty, I can taste the salt on his lips, but I don't mind. 

His tongue explores my mouth like it's the first time it's been granted entrance, and I tease his tongue with mine while I keep grinding him. The wetness increases between my thighs and I'm desperate for some friction too. We have been having sex more ever since the triple date we went on. It's been fun doing it with him because I trust him. It's never rough though which I appreciate. We can go fast and hard, but he is never rough with me. If I didn't trust him as much as I, do I don't think I could have sex with him without panicking. 

Joe slips his hands under my sports bra and pull it over my head baring my breasts to him. They're not huge but he doesn't seem to mind. When he pulls my nipple into his mouth I moan and arch my back. 

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«Why do we have to go to this thing?» Joe groans as I'm finishing my makeup. «Because Blair is my best friend and needs support. It's an engagement party Joe, we need to be there» 

Tonight, is Blair and Louis engagement party which we obviously need to attend. I feel so bad that Blair is marrying him because she is so damn miserable. But she is strong, I hope that's going to get her through it. Louis might have a sharp tongue, but he is weak too. Blair can handle him, take the power in the relationship. Her family is of a higher rank anyway than his, so that could work in her advantage too. 

«But Louis is a fucking prick. I can't stand that guy» joe whines and I roll my eyes. «Do you think any of us like him? We don't. He is an idiot. But Blair is marrying him, and we need to support her. You will put on a face and pretend to have a good time, or you can sleep on the couch tonight»