Endeavours With A Gangsta

Hope

I thought it meant something
But it didn't
It wasn't meant to be
And I already knew that

I held on to what I knew
what felt like home
At the time
Only for the same home to tumble upon me
I am defeated

Now my path is empty
But why does this feel good?
Should I feel guilty?

I am not sure but this moment
Right now,
I feel happy and fulfilled
My home was not my home after all
Existing only with my hope of keeping it alive
But one thing I've understood is
You can't force to move in
if it is not your home

But one day you will find your home
And you will feel welcomed,
You will feel warmth,
I exist for this hope,
I hope I find my home in you.