[STOLITZ] I'm So Sorry..

im thankful

( tw- self harm depression suicide )

Stolas pov:

I woke up,head spinning and eyes not fully adjusted to my surroundings. The dull hospital lighting clashing with the red sky of the pride ring gave me a headache more then the one I had originally.

"Were am I" I tried to say but no words came out. A hospital? What happened.

I sat up rubbing my face. I felt warm very warm. I sat up looking around until I noticed the bandages and drip attached onto my hand and bandages all over.

Then I remembered everything.

" oh shit" i said then dramatically sighing falling back onto my pillow rolling on to my side. " why am I still alive? " i said in an annoyed voice like a whining child. I sat up again when I heard a doctor walk in.

" oh prince stolas ur awake I'm glad" she said as she pushed her glasses up her face looking at me. " I'm afraid you lost alot of blood and will have to be kept here for a while until we sort everything out" she said then smiled reassuring me, I didnt feel judged by her and being here.

" I uh.. undertand " I said looking down at my fresh placed bandages down my arms.

" who brought me here ? " I said looking up at her now as she was checking to make sure my drip was well and working. She paused before looking at me
" your daughter and boyfriend called the ambulance there who to thank" she said before getting back to checking everything was working correctly.

" via....and ...blitzø" I said looking down again this time a wave of sadness fell on me. They found me in THIS state.

Oh via I'm so sorry ...and blitz why ...why was he there.." i thought my eyes widening and my arms starting to tighten grip around my feathers.

" do you want me to send them in " said the doctor " they have been waiting a while , they are very worried about you " she said writing the last couple of details on her clipboard before sticking her pen behind her ear.

" there ...here?" I said my voice sounding upset but my expression dying to see them the only two I REALLY love.

" uh yeah please do send them in.."

I felt tense. Like I was gonna vomit any moment. My grip tightened and my eyes were wide. What will they say? Will they hate me? I dont want them to worry?
The room door busting open kicked me back into reality.

" DAD " said via she ran over and wrapped her arms around me holding me tight into her.
She was crying as I held her.
My hand and back ached in pain but I didnt care. " oh via I'm alright honey" I said as I held her tighter. She sat on the end of the hospital bed as I whipped her tears.

" its alright"

"Stolas" I heard by the door of the hospital room.
" blitz " I said quietly not sure if he fully heard me. I couldnt look at him. He hated me. He thought I was disgusting.

" I'm sorry blitz i-" i was cut off by him jumping ontop of me his arms wrapped around my neck. " IM SORRY STOLAS ITS ALL MY FAULT" he said half crying into me and half angrily at himself.

" blitz , it's not your fault " I said hugging him back close to me." I'm sorry, I'm so sorry....I'm.. so sorry" my words turned into heavy sobs as I held the both of them close to me not able to get the words out but I was happy.

It may not be alot of people who love me, but it's enough for me.

( HELLO author here , sorry this was late I was busy with work and life and didnt get the time 😔 SO I MADE UP FOR THE ANGST with some less angst ( for now:)

I hope you enjoyed
<3