[STOLITZ] I'm So Sorry..

father?

Tw: suicide self harm depression drug abuse

Octavia pov:

That morning I woke up blasting my music as always, I stumbled out of bed after hearing my mother and father argue that night before. Seriously there acually getting the divorce ? I didnt know weather to see this as a good or bad thing. I walked into the kitchen expecting to see my father but he was nowhere. I took out a headphone to see if I could hear him. Nothing.
" Dad?" I shouted up the stares.
Maybe hes in bed? I thought. Its 1 pm tho? Hes not the sleeping in type, hes up early to make breakfast for everyone?

" do I really gotta go back upstairs" I mutter walking up loosely holding onto the stairway railing.

"Dad?" I said knocking on his bedroom door. No response " if u dont answer I'm coming in". No response. "

"Fine" I said opening his bedroom door.

There he was. Passed out on the floor in a puddle of his own blood and tears. I stood in shock before running over holding his body. It was cold.

"DAD OH SHIT DAD" I shouted to nobody myself maybe, or maybe my dad. " SHIT SHIT SHIT WHAT THE FUCK" the whole sentence strung differently like it didnt match it broke inbetween escaping tears. WHY WHAT HAPPENED ( tw: self harm suicide )

I didnt notice at first the cuts and knife and empty pill bottle until scanning the room for the 4th time of searching
"He-he did it himself" I said barely getting it out of me before breaking down. I need help I need someone l.....i know...

I grabbed my dads phone that was close by him calling on emergency like...IMP

- flash forward until blitz arrived-

" OCTAVIA" I heard the bedroom door slamming open. " MY GOD WHAT HAPPENED WHY-WYAT" the red imp said running in looking at my dads body now in his arm.

"Idk" I whispered whipping tears off with my sleeve " I DONR KNOW WHY why why would he l-leave me " the more I spoke the more tears would start falling.

" call an ambulance " I heard blitz say.
" WHATS THE POINT I BARKED BACK, HES DEAD" I saw standing up feeling a glow of rage fall down on me, it was HIS fault my dad is gone isnt it.

"OCTAVIA QUICK" he said in a serious tone looking directly at me " I hear a heartbeat"

when he said those words all emotion disappeared and I ran to the phone to call the hospital. " hes alive , HES ALIVE" I said waiting for the phone to ring gripping in tighter hes not dead.

- ambulance came- ( I'm lazy )

The ambulance came as fast as it was called and Stolas was quickly rushed off. blitz offered to follow it to the hospital in the IMP van. We both sat in in the waiting room, my head was low sitting in my hands and he paced back and forth muttering swear words under his breath stopping to whipe tears off his face.
After awhile he sat and looked at his blank phone.
" hey" I said my voice quite and low but loud enough for his eye to shift to mine " you uh you think hes ok"i said looking away at him and at my hands rested on my knees.

" your fathers a strong fighter" he said also avoiding eye contact now "he loves u alot, none of this is ur fault Octavia its mine I take blame" I looked over in shock at that statement he sat crying more tears now covering it with his hands but I knew he was.

"He really liked you, u know"i chimed in, that made him look at me through his hands in a way of curiously. " he would talk about u all the time, he really loved you. This isnr your fault blitz " I say looking at him more intensaly now.
"He-he loved me ?" He said in a way lke when u figered out you just won the lotto.

"Hello?"are you octavia and blitzo?" Said a tall slender woman with glasses and a messy bun" I'm nurse lola , I'm happy to say ur father is awake and well now. You may see him please follow me.

We both sprung up and followed her quick.

Hes ALIVE ?.

( yes hello author here, I hope u enjoyed :) )