It never stops

Before

Life has always been hard and confusing. With my parents seperating when I was four then both remarrying I always felt broken; out of place. My dad moved to California and remarried a nice woman with a daughter slightly younger than me, while my mom met a man with two daughters older than me. The court finding my dad unfit to support me I have now lived with my mom for 11 years with only short visits to my dad. I grew up with my mom, stepdad, two stepsisters, and my youngest brother. We were all nice and happy when the life of my stepfather was harshly ripped from us. Shock struck us as everything after happened so fast. My mom became pregnant not too long after my stepfathers death and spent 9 long months with just me and my brother as my previous stepsisters turned their backs on us now that their father was dead. My mom gave birth to beautiful little boy named Jake only to find out it wasn't her previous husbands child, it was one of his bestfriends. My mother then fed me lines of crap as to how that happened with which I still don't know the true story. But once that child was born our life's turned upside down. We had no idea what to think about so much violence thrown into our life when it had always been gentle.