After four years of posting and finishing the first version of my story 'The Gay's Diary' I decided there was a need for a reboot. The story will be better than ever, introducing your favorite characters once again back in action. Some of the things...
College has been going smoothly, but also not at the same time. We are officially in our first full month of starting classes, I have been hanging out with Anna almost every day and talking to Matt in English class a lot. Though lately he has been acting really strange, it seems like he might have some personal issues going on. I have tried to talk to him if he has something going on, he just keeps denying it and saying he is fine.
-Nate
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Saturday morning always seemed to drag alone but go so fast at the same time. Matt decided to text me last night asking if he can come over today around one-thirty or two in the afternoon. I hope he is finally ready to talk about what has been on his mind because I want to be there to help him through it. I still had a crush on him and I want him to be happy in whatever way he would like to live his life. I decided to deep clean my tiny apartment from the clutter chaos that I called my apartment, Dana would have been on my ass if she saw the state that my living conditions were in. Kind of felt sorry for all my neighbors as I had the music playing throughout the whole place and moving my furniture around the apartment.
After I was done cleaning my whole ass apartment, I was sweating my ass off by the time I was done cleaning my apartment. Plopping onto the couch with a heavy sigh, looking at the time which revealed the time almost struck noon. A disappointed feeling overcame me as I still had all this time leftover with really nothing else to do. Then I smelt an awful smell that came from my pits, I gagged a bit before standing up to go take a shower to kill the time. As the music started playing and the water was running, I went into the shower and just really took my time getting all prepped up for Matt's arrival.
Wiping the mirror down to see my reflection, I looked at my messy dark brown and grabbed the lotion. I dabbed some lotion all over my face to rub it all over my face and patted my face lightly. A sigh left my mouth and grabbed the hair dyer, it took a bit to fully dry and brush my hair. I walked into my room and grabbed a random outfit, looking at the clock on my bed side table. It was one-thirty, I heard a knock on my door and rushed to the door. My heart was racing as my body was filled with anxiety, I felt my hand shaking as I reached for the door knob. Behind the door was Matt, he looked also defeated and just overall not good. His dark eyes looked sad as I stepped aside with a smile, "Hey! It's so nice to see you!" I exclaimed to help lighten up the gloomy mood. He let out a small smile in return, it didn't seem genuine, "Thank you for letting me come over here in this time of comfort. I really need a friend in this confusing time." he spoke in a melancholic tone before he slowly sat down on the couch. I sat down next to him but left enough space, but it was enough space to send the message that I was here for him.
"So, if you are ready, you can tell me what you wanted to talk about." I spoke softly to him, he was leading forward with his forearms on his thighs. His hands were holding each other and his head hung low, letting out a long sigh. "I- I really don't know how to put this into words. I have been thinking about this for weeks." He spoke slowly, each word he said had me hanging on his sentence. He looked at me from the corner of his eyes, the look was just filled with many emotions I could not really tell what was going on in his mind. I sat in silence as he took the time to put the words he wanted to say into a sentence. His lips parted slightly as he wanted to start speaking but no words came out. "It's okay, you can take your time." I spoke softly, holding back the urge to pat his shoulder in comfort or hug him. He gave me a nod and slowly turned his head towards me, "So- I have been doing some thinking for a long time." he took his time saying words to make sure he didn't mess up the wording. I nodded as a sign that I was listening to his words.
"And I trust you as a friend, can you please keep what I am about to tell you as a secret?" He asked as he stared at me in my eyes. I gave a vigorous nod as he looked a bit relieved with the head nod. "So- Nate...I think that I might be gay," he said softly and hung his head low. My heart and stomach sank to the ground as my vision became blurry, he is gay! Oh shit, this cannot be happening to me. He has a girlfriend, what is he going to do about that?!? So many thoughts and questions were running in my head, I felt my body being shaken as I snapped out of my thoughts. "Nate- Please answer me or have some reaction, you're scaring me," he raised his voice slightly. I blinked at him a few times before I pulled him into a hug and patted his back, "Hey Matt, I'm here for you and your journey. I am so glad that you trusted me enough as a friend with this information. I will not tell a soul." I pulled away from him and dragged my pointer finger and thumb across my lip. "Your secret is safe with me," I smiled softly as he gave a bigger smile back. "Thank you Nate," he spoke in a soft tone. ——————————————————— AUTHOR'S NOTE Hello! I just wanted to come in and say have a safe Christmas Eve and Christmas Day. Merry Christmas for the readers that celebrate, Happy Yule, Happy Hanukkah or Happy 25th of December. :))
