Will you Love me? (SasuNaru FF: YAOI/BOYXBOY)

II

WARNING: Mature content ahead. Read at your own risk.

The sun is just starting to rise from the horizon making the sky clad in orange with a blend of red. The birds are chirping dejectedly in the branches of trees.

A soft lick in my cheeks made my eyes flutter. I blink my eyes many times as my mind register the surrounding I am in. I sit up slowly as I lean my back on a trunk of tree. A low growl made me snap out of sleepy daze. My hands reach out to touch the white soft fur blend with black stripe patterns, to calm the big kitty cat.

"I'm fine, Shiro..", the white tiger roar gently as an answer. I smile gently as I pet the tiger. "Can you get my pants, please?"

Shiro turn back and grab my things scattered on the ground using his mouth and went back to me and drop it on my lap.

"Thank you.", I muttered.

Shiro lay down on the ground as I put my pants on and waited for me. I move slowly and carefully so my wounds won't reopen from last nights activity. When I finished, I called Shiro to accompany me in walking back in the cottage. She obeyed willingly and rub her head in my thigh. A soft smile curve in my lips as I pet her in the head.

We reach my house in a matter of minutes. I let Shiro inside and I gave her some meat to eat. She roar gently as a thanks and feast on her meal. I left her in the living room and went to my room to shower.

I strip my clothes and went to the bathroom. I open the shower and bath on the warm water that made my muscles relax.

I feel dirty and use. I'm a man myself yet I was rape by another man. Yet, I don't feel any recentment to the man who did it. I can't get myself angry. Someone told me before that everything happen for a reason. Means, the man has a reason for his action. But even if I don't hate the man, I still feel dirty. Unpure.

A sob escape my mouth as I fall on my naked butt on the cold tiles of the bathroom. My long blonde wet hair sticking up in the floor and my body. I hug my knees and hide my face in it, my tears flowing continously.

"S-someone...help me.."

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I lay on Shiro's belly as we rest outside on my home's deck, enjoying the morning cold breeze. We both stare on the bright blue sky, admiring how blue and vast it is. Shiro growl softly indicating that she like our current position. I chuckle and touch her fur making her purr in delight.

Soon, a swarm of sparrows lay on us and chirp happily making me happy and somehow forget the sorrow I feel.

Although humans loathe me for some reasons I don't know, animals love me. They gave me the love that my own village refuse to gave me. But despite that, I hold no recentment on the village I grew up. But I'm wishing that someday, they will learn to accept. And another thing, I can understand animals rather than a person.

Shiro roar and the sparrows flew as a loud knock can be heard in the huge wooden gates. Shiro look at me with a question mark on her face, then growl, asking me if I knew I have a visitor today. I shook my head as an answer.

"Maybe, its Tsunade-baa-chan..?", I muttered as I stand up and leave the deck. "Let's go, Shiro.."

Shiro followed me behind. When we reach the gate and on act of opening it, I halt. I remember that Oruchimaru-jii-chan said that I should confirm who is in the other side before opening it.

"Uhmm, w-who's there?", I ask lowly but enough to be heard. I put my hands on my chest and clutch my shirt when no one respond. I bit my lip as I open the small sill on the gate and take a peek outside. My eyes search any signs of someone being there but see none.