What Happened to Us?

[miss you] pt 5

Mike

Why is it that I miss Will more then El. The only thing I could think about once they left was how was I supposed to go on without Will, not El, Will.

Maybe because I have know Will for a longer time then El. But El is my girlfriend not Will. Will is just a fri..end ...

But was he? Before he went missing I felt different when I was around him. Different from what I felt when I was around Dustin and Lucas.

I didn't know what it was until I met El. The way my heart speed up and everything in the word was just her. That's how I felt with Will.

But is it even possible for someone to feel like that about two people. Then I realized I loved Will but I also loved El. I wanted to have something with Will more then El. But he was a boy... I couldn't date a boy. That's just not how it works.

So I got with El. When she came back I started dating hoping my feelings for her would get bigger than my feelings for him. I couldn't love Will more than El. I had to love El so much that my feelings for Will would disappear. Did it work? 

No. It didn't work at all. The more I was with El the more it made me realize that I wanted Will not El. But it was too late. I didn't want to break El, and Will is probable not even gay. But if he was then he wouldn't get with his sister's ex. I miss you Will Byers so fucking much. More than I thought I would. Will Byers the love of my pathetic live.
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pt 5
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