Dear family and friends,
I'm leaving this note to say good bye to everyone and hope to see you on the other side, please don't cry for losing me or feel sad about what I'm about to do, I'm a horrible son, brother, friend, and boyfriend, I've become an addict the moment I completed my 21st birthday, I'm drinking, smoking and taking pills, all kinds even though I have promised my mother to never do any of those, I've promised my mother of a lot of things and let her down with each promise.
I've used my mother's money that she made doing pity jobs here and there to provide for us after my father past away and my uncles let us down, she was the father, the mother, the uncle, the aunt, and the grandparents we needed to grow healthy, but I couldn't.
I've let my father down after promising him on his death bed that I will be the man of the house and replace him, I've never done that, I didn't be there when my brother faced troubles, I wasn't there when my sister entered the emergency, I wasn't there when my mother got sick and I wasn't there for any of my brothers, I feel disgusted with myself every single day.
I'm a worthless piece of shit, I'm the worst kind of people that you could possibly ever encounter, I'm a parasite that lives on people's misery and pity, I'm a person that gives vague promises without thinking about them twice.
I have to go, I've been praying to God for an accident to take my life, but nothing happened, I've tried crossing the road as risky as I can to get hit by a car, I got hit twice but didn't die, only broke a leg.
Some of you might feel sad, you shouldn't, I'm a horrible human being, I'm the worst kind of people to ever exist, I've always used your emotions towards me to only get what I want such as money and companionship, I've never really cared about how any of you feels, I've always been focusing on my goals and benefits.
And all of the nice things that you will be remembering that I did, for instance the time I worked and took my family to the beach, or the time I helped a friend go through a break up or the day I took care of that street cat till it healed, I didn't really care about any of those, I did them all because I know that those gestures will make you love me more and agree more to help me whenever I needed.
I'm not a heartless human being, I did care about a lot of you at some points and some of the things I said were actually true, but I never really had that connection with any of you, I've never felt that I should help you for the sake of helping you, I've only helped you all because I knew that you all are going to help me back, I have never cared about your safety or health.
I'm really sorry for being that kind of a person that treats you nice only for their own benefits, but I had to, or I didn't, I don't really know.
Now, some of you may think that I've said all of those things just to make you get over me quick, but no, I am saying the truth for the first time of my whole life, I'm being the real me for the first time of my whole life, so please treat this letter as if I'm opening up truly to you for the first time.
I'm sorry for all of the pain that I've caused to each and everyone of you, I'm sorry about all of the shit that I've done to everyone of you, especially my mother, I'm really sorry, but I'm not the son you've always thought you've had, I'm sorry my girlfriend, I'm not the boyfriend that you've always that I am, and I'm sorry my friend, I'm not the guy that cares about you either.
I love you all, and I'm sorry for everything, please accept this letter as a goodbye note, not as a request for forgiveness, hate me for the cruel person I am.
With Love.
Person 1.
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The Last Letter
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