The Future's Just A Few Heartbeats Away [Tony Perry]

Chapter 6.

I might upload a prologue to the next fanfic. Should I ??? it’s a Mike Fuentes Fanfiction… lemme know.  

The song that is ‘played’ is Boston by Augustana, if you don’t know the song; you should because it’s beautiful. Ok. I found it on Pandora, ive been obsessed with it since this morning. Lololololooolool

Before we actually left my apartment, tony walked over to my guitar, the same guitar that Pierce the Veil, along with many other bands all signed.

“You’re going to need this” he said with a smile and walked out to the car. I just stood there, making sure I did in fact have everything. But something popped in my mind. I walked back into my bed room and searched the bed side table for my journal; it was more of a song writing journal, or poems kind of thing than a diary. I stuffed it in my purse and walked out to the van.

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A couple of minutes after my bags were loaded; the bus took off down the high way with the other band’s buses behind them. Here we go. We were going to be in Chicago in 7 hours, and then we had a week off to spend there. Which was nice, but I just wanted to get back up on stage, I loved the feeling it gave me, the rush; you could feel on the stage. But sadly I had to wait.

Good thing I covered up my face in the van on the way over, it was bad enough tony had to see me like that; all broken. I didn’t want the rest of the guys to see me like that, ever, and I didn’t want tony to witness that ever again either. But he was going to see that broken part of me again; every time I look at him all I could think about was that morning. About how I promised him I’d tell him why I was crying.

But the truth was that I didn’t exactly know why I was crying. I always tell myself that ‘that person isn’t me anymore’ but sometimes, I always feel like that person; that person who not only hurt herself, but hurt the people dearest around her. I had hurt autumn, that’s what caused her to punch me. I didn’t want to hurt someone else close to me, but I had no one else. Maybe except tony, but I don’t even know what me and tony are. And I would never hurt him.

Jaime pulled me out of my thoughts and tugged me towards everyone else who was now in the back lounge. Jaime took a seat on the floor, so the only seat left was one next to tony on the couch. I sat down and waited as mike popped in a DVD.

“This is what we usually do; watch movies, to pass time. Either that or think of new songs.” Vic said at the other end of the couch.

“Sorcerer’s stone!” mike yelled before taking a seat next to me on the couch. The guys sighed.

“yay!” I blankly shouted out while the others starred at me in shock.

“Aw shit, she’s a potterhead, AND drinks whiskey too? She’s a keeper tony.” Mike said and then winked towards tony. When I looked over he was starring daggers at mike.

“it’s true.” I said and pushed into tonys body, he smiled and rapped his arm around me and we watched the movie in complete silence. 

Everyone except me ended up drifting off to sleep. I carefully removed tonys arm from around my waist and proceeded to exit the back lounge. Without any warning the bus made a sharp right turn and I stepped on Jaime who was sprawled out on the floor. He didn’t wake up though. I walked to my bunk where I held my clothes and what not. I decided I was going to wash my face and then go to bed.

In the bathroom I starred at the reflection in the mirror. It didn’t look like me. The person in the mirror looked broken, lost, sad. Which are none of the emotions I felt. Until I thought of autumn. Why the hell was I putting so much strain on myself? She’s the one who hurt me; I tried to convince myself. But it didn’t work. Lost in my thoughts once again I slid on to the bathroom floor, and just sat there. Still trying to think that everything would be ok. I don’t even know why I’m thinking of autumn…wasn’t I supposed to be blocking her out? She did this. She ruined our friendship. She did. Not me. I felt like I was having an anxiety attack.