Craving Much More

6.The Argument

Days went by and von has slowly decline my needs.

I'll kiss him and it doesn't feel the same.

I hope his not trying to leave me for someone else..

I called grace and Dena

I think von doesn't want to be with me
Why you say that because he not making love to me

its like lately his not all here.

i went by the school and checked out what they were telling me I could just be a Nurse practioner.

that would be excellent the girls replied.

i havent felt von next to me in how long . Its like he is avoiding me or there is someone else or just idk.

well girl grace said just be patient i know its hard when me and zekel get into it we just

give each other space. The question is can you hold the urge.

yeah i said with deep thought.

They had to go and Von just walked in the door

he sat right on the couch he looked diffrent.

i went to him baby is everything okay.

yeah, i just havent been feeling well maybe im coming down with a cold

i checked him out he seemed okay but who knows how he feels better than himself.

Von

yes tisa

im thinking bout going back to school.

why ,

to further my education and become a doctor.

i went by the school they say if i take a certain amount of classes every semester i can become a Doctor in about 2-3 years. Theres classes i dont have to take and theres scholarships and stuff.i love free money .

von are you listening , i cant wait to do it .

huh what he said

were you even listening Von

Von whats your problem

nothing tisa.

damn

what you mean damn

i know you not damning me in my house. im just trying to tell you my plans and you dont even care.

his eyes were closed and he was out of it.

damn it von i screamed he rose up and he looked mne dead in my eyes

i was so scared i never seen him so mad.

Tisa do what you want alright ,

so you dont care Von.

it doesnt matter what i think because you going to leave me anyway.

what the hell are you talking bout VON.

IDK

NO ITS SOMETHING

talk to me

i cant tisa .

Von do you want to take some time apart from me.

No tisa.

then why you pushing me away .

Von i try to make love to you and you wont let me.

Tisa im just going through something

so talk to me Von .

i cant.

why not

because i cant damn , im supposed to tell yoou everything im going through

when he said that my heart broke. The tears where in my eyes and it burned

i took a step back and just felt the worst pain every my own husband couldnt trust me.

He said tisa im sorry i didnt mean it im sorry.

I went upstairs cried and cried. i felt like why ,marriage was over it just began.

he banged on the bathroom door tisa open it please we can talk..

i opened the door packed somethings for overnight and told him i cant be in a house with a man who is supposed to be my husband but wont speak to me.

Von i cant be here i dont feel like i belong .. my eyes were streaming with tears.

he kept calling out to me but i ignored him. he tried to run after me but i was alreayd in the car and wasnt letting him speak to me.

i drove off crying. when i ended up at my cousins house if i went to grace or denas house he could find me

so i didnt go ..

knock knock

hey girl long time

i lift my head and started crying omg

tisa come in .

i sat on the couch and cried and i began to speak .

Von is acting weird again and i cant believe it . i tried to get him to him and he wouldnt then he finally said Im not supposed to tell you everything

omg i can only imagine how much that broke your heart well

Im sure he didnt mean it like that but right now i just have to play the double advocate ..

i know girl. i laughed a little

just give it some time in the meantime you can crash here and quincy wont mind..

ohh okay . thanks she gave me a big hugged and wipe my tears

i love you tisa and i love you talisa.

-----this goes out to my wonderful,favorite,girl for supporting me and always being there for all my crazy ideas...much love your cousin .