Rollercoaster

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Hi , My name is Millie I suffer with depression my life has never been easy it's always been a deep cave of thoughts that never never never never end I mean never I got bullied in school all my life and I have a lot of family problems my day is like this ....... I wake up worry and worry again someone times I just don't want to wake up I know it's bad . My only support is my mom and my dad the rest of my family are crazy they just make you feel like your not good enough to be alive on this world well that's my dads side my moms side is a different story all my my moms side basically split into groups like you would do in school for P.E I know it sounds crazy but what did I say THEY ARE CRAZY they all hate each other my moms little group includes my granny and her 2 sister Lottie and Lola and there always in my house like 24/7 . You might think oh that's so sweet it not I hate my aunties my granny is not to bad but VERY JUDGMENTAL . Now that I told you aboult my family let me tell you what my life is like . It starts on Monday 5th of November 2003 that's when I was born the worst day of my life when I was born when I was born I had a lot of breathing problems and I could of died but my family didn't care . ANYWAY I AM HEAR B**CH . Life was good until I got into primary school there was this girl named Trisha Michelle and BONNIE she was the leader and still is to this day she is a totally female dog sorry trying to hold my urge or cursing .The had a colour of clothes that they wore each day and I remeber it Monday blue Tuesday pink Wednesday purple Thursday red Friday rainbow but has to be pastel beause apparently they will look gay and they are very homophopic like very Saturday they can wjere what they want if they don't meet eachother but if they do it's yellow and sunday is white or black like there souls . Also I have to add they where as popular as Christmas everyone knew aboult them . Of course there had to be got boys what story would there be without them Duhhh there names where Chad but I think his name should be chad mcflurry there also Harry and Ben there the hottest Boys in school and they play soccer and swim . But may I mention there is a lot of friendships in the school and they all have labels and tables to sit at and Bonnie was the school principal committee of course she wasn't the principal but it's bassically any student from the school gets to come up with ideas to make the school a better place now of course DO YOU THINK BONNIE THE MOST POPULAR GIRL IN THE SCHOOL WHO IS THE BIGGEST BULLY AND FEMAL DOG GONNA BE GOOD AT THAT IF YOU GUESSED YES YOU GUESSED WRONG . Her mom is the principal of the school that's why she gets that role her mom is just as bad as her the only reason she got picked was beause she had money and Mr Williams are old principal wanted out of this school so he gave it to anyone who had money . As I was saying the table situation some of the tables include emo popular hot boys nerd boys nerd girls the hockey girls the hockey boys so on so forward can you guys what table I was on ...... I was on a table alone at the in the corner with raged edges and gum all under it with names all under . I was offered to the nerd table but just no I would rather pee in front of my crush then sit there . School was hard for me I was dyslexic so I wouldn't fit in there table anyways I always felt like I have not porpous in life anymore .I just always feel like I have no talent nobody like me and I am ugly all I do is cry myself to sleep and wish I wasn't hear . In the past 3years I have ran away 4 times but they never worked I always got hungry went home and just had a lot of food and of course get in trouble by my parents I have 15 siblings so that is alot of work for my parents so they don't always know where I am so the other 3 times I ran away they didn't know I was gone for 3 day on one of them . I am for sure that I am the least favourite I have to look after my siblings and clean while my parents just get drunk and have friends over I always refuse but I beat until I accept I know u said at the start that my only supporters where my parents when I ment by that there the only people who talk to me so they could as a bit of help even though the talks are work harder do it now your not good enough get up you lazy pig stop looking for ettemshion your not depressed all of that stuff so that does break me down and it does not help when I have school work and being dyslex so I always get in trouble for not completing homework beause I have to clean and I always exsplain and when they ring my parents they say they don't me to do it and that there so sorry she is just very naughty . I have Been exspleled 8 times this year it's my third time switching school in a total of 5 years . I have tried to kill myself many times but I am ready to change .