When did you realise the term transgender referred to you?
Around 3 weeks ago 😅
Though I probably should've figured it out about 10 years earlier. Problem was, I never felt all that dysphoric, though if you gave me the big red Become A Girl button pretty much any time since started uni, I woulda pressed it in a heartbeat. Sure, all my OCs and D&D characters were girls, and sure I liked wearing my girlfriend's long hoodie while silently cursing my need to shave every morning, but even when she straight up asked me if I was a girl, all I could do was blush and giggle my way through a, "No, of course not!" That would be way too much work, I thought.
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Comfy sweatshirt in chilly Turkey
Fast forward a bit and I'm off to my new home of Hong Kong for what would end up being an all-too-short 5 years. With constant political worries and not a lot of spare cash, I wasn't thinking too much about my gender identity. Though I wouldn't trade my time there for anything, I made the promise to myself that if I ever ended up leaving Hong Kong and getting some high-paying tech job in the US, the first thing I'd get for myself is facial electrolysis. Fuck shaving.
... and that's exactly what happened. But even so, electrolysis is expensive, so I investigate whether my insurance would cover it. Hmm... seems like maybe, for patients who've been on HRT for at least six months. Damn. That'd be crazy, going on HRT just to get cheaper electrolysis, right? But maybe? Still totally cis, tho.
But I can't stop that egg from cracking. Start looking at memes and reddit posts and transition timelines... could I really do this? People look so good! And so happy! I may have lost my home in Hong Kong, but I might at least be able to find myself here. Fuck it, let's make the appointment!
And here we are. 31 days until my first meeting with the transitions department. 31 days until I can start moving in the right direction towards the rest of my life as Annah. And I couldn't be happier.
