𝗠𝗬 𝗕𝗘𝗦𝗧 𝗙𝗥𝗜𝗘𝗡𝗗𝗦 𝗕𝗥𝗢𝗧𝗛𝗘𝗥, 𝗰𝗵𝗿𝗶𝘀 𝘀𝘁𝘂𝗿𝗻𝗶𝗼𝗹𝗼

Chapter 11: attention

chris and i hang out almost everyday, although, hes on his phone half of the time. I dont want to sound needy but i just feel like hes not paying attention to me. I havent spoken up about it, i dont have the courage, but right now, i do. I go to his room and knock, he tells me to come in

"hey" i say softly sitting down on his bed, my hands tucked in my sleeves

"hi" he says looking at his phone

"uhm, could you put your phone down for a second? i wanna talk to you" i say nervously

"uhm, yeah." he says putting his phone down "are you okay?" 

"uhm, well, i am. But i feel like you have been on your phone a lot for the past couple of weeks whenever we hang out and its making me kind of doubtful if we should keep going out because you'd rather talk to people or play on your phone than talk to me" i rant, catching my breath after speaking

"well sorry, but not all of my attention is gonna go to you you know? its not like we're in a committed relationship or anything" chris says grabbing his phone

"i never said we were and im not saying that i need all your attention, i just think that it'd be kind of nice if you put your phone down whenever we are together" i say shrugging

"well its my life and i do whatever i want you know, im not gonna let you fucking control me" chris says angrily, furrowing his brows

"chris i never said that i want to control your life, why are you turning this into such a big deal?" i say with a nervous chuckle in my voice

"just leave, i dont want to talk to you right now" chris says 

"im sorry" i say quietly closing his door and going back downstairs with nick, matt, avery and hailey.

"what'd you guys talk about?" avery asks

"nothing important" i say crossing my arms

"you sure? you seem upset" matt says

"im fine matt" i say looking at him "can we go to seven eleven or something? im bored as hell"

"well, yeah" hailey says

we go to the triplets van but nick takes a little longer to come out, when he does, hes with chris. I dont even want to see or talk to him right now. I am upset about the way he talked to me, of course i am. I just asked him a simple question and he gets all worked up. Chris comes into the car with a camera in his hand

"wait were gonna film a whole fucking video?" i ask

"yeah, why?" nick asks

"no reason." i say as matt starts driving

we go to seven eleven and get our things, then we go to mcdonalds and then go to a parking lot. Nick seta up the camera and starts filming, we were gonna do a Q&A.

"okay first question, have you guys ever been in a relationship and are you in a relationship?"  nick asks

"i have never been in one" i say pursing my lips

"i have been but im not right now" hailey says

"same as hailey" avery says

"i have been" matt says

"have been" nick says

"i have been" chris says chuckling

"why am i the only one that has never been in the relationship in this car" i say crossing my arms

"i dont know because you need all the attention probably" chris says coldly, looking back at me

"shut up chris." i say sternly, sinking in my seat "you always bring shit up thats fucking unnecessary i dont get why youre like this" 

"for fucks sake maya im sick of fighting with you you know?" chris says  

"and im sick you" i mumble

"did you guys fight or something?" matt asks with a chuckle in his voice

"oh no we just have this new thing where we bring up false scenarios to make everything a little more dramatic" chris says 

"mhm" i say sitting back up

after that, we ask more questions and then go back to the triplets house, we were all gonna have a sleep over. I am gonna talk to chris. He goes to his room and closes the door, i knock on it and close the door behind me

"never pull a fucking stunt like that ever again christopher" i say leaning on the door

"what do you mean?!" chris asks angrily

"i didnt feel fucking comfortable with you bringing up our disagreement in front of everyone! it was just a simple yes or no question you didnt have to make it such a big fucking deal" i rant

"you cant control my fucking actions you know?!" chris says furrowing his brows

"CHRIS I NEVER FUCKING SAID THAT I WANT TO CONTROL YOU OR YOUR ACTIONS I JUST ASKED YOU TO PUT YOUR PHONE DOWN WHENEVER WE GO OUT INSTEAD OF BEING ON IT EVERY FUCKING SECOND OF THE DAY! WHY ARE YOU NOT TAKING MY FEELINGS INTO CONSIDERATION?!" i yell at him

"MAYA IM TAKING EVERYTHING INTO FUCKING CONSIDERATION BUT I DONT LIKE IT WHEN PEOPLE TELL ME WHAT TO DO, ESPECIALLY A GIRL WHO I STARTED GETTING CLOSE TO ONLY THREE FUCKING MONTHS AGO! IF IT WAS ONE OF MY BROTHERS I WOULD LISTEN TO THEM BUT I DONT HAVE TO LISTEN TO YOU, WHY SHOULD I LISTEN TO YOU?!" chris yells back

"fine, im sorry. im going home." i say looking down and slamming the door behind me, i walk upstairs "hailey come on" i say grabbing her arm

"wait arent we staying?" she asks confused

"we were but we're not now" i say letting go of her arm

"but why not?" she asks

"because i dont want to be around anyone right now! i dont want to be with nick, matt or chris right at this fucking moment. Now come because we're leaving and you're driving." i say putting the keys in her hand and walking out the front door

hailey follows after me and im sitting in the passenger seat looking down with my hands tucked in my sleeves, hailey closes the door and just starts driving. Hailey knows when im upset even if i dont tell her and she knows i dont like to talk when i am, it makes me anxious. But right now, i need to talk to someone, anyone. Id even talk to a stranger on the street.

"i got into a fight with chris." i say looking at my sister

"well yeah, we heard muffled screaming from his room. What do nick and matt have to do with it?" she asks

"because they're triplets, if i look at nick or matt it'll remind me of chris and the last thing i want to think about is chris." i say 

"well, why did you guys fight anyway?" she asks

"okay dont tell anyone but chris and i have been going out for like 3 weeks or something and we didnt want to tell anyone. But now when we are hanging out or we go out hes always on his phone and i just asked for him to put his phone down when we're together but he made it a big deal and thought that i wanted to control him and stuff and one thing led to the next and now im not talking to him, end of story." i rant, trying to catch my breath

"are you guys together?" hailey asks

"what do you mean?" i ask looking at her

"in a relationship" hailey says

"oh, nope" i say leaning back into my seat "can we not talk about it anymore? i dont want to talk about it"

"oh, okay. im here if you wanna talk" she says

"okay" i say

once we get home, i go up to my room and go to sleep. I dont know what to feel, i still like chris, but if hes gonna be such an asshole im not gonna talk to him