Made for mercy

Babydoll

He leans in to kiss me chastely, before pulling back to look at me. The tears flow freely now.
I feel both better and worse...there is a strange comfort in letting my feelings out around him.
"I miss them..." He nods. He knows I miss them, he knew when I first cried into his chest, when I screamed at him, when I tried to run away.
His hands drop from my face, one sliding around my waist and the other around my back pulling me in. I lay my head on his chest and grip his shirt as if it's a lifeline. His hand rubs soothing circles on my back. I can hear him breathing slow and deep. Deliberate. I can smell the mint in his breath. I can feel the heat of it in my hair. "Just because you loved them doesn't mean you can't love us...love me." I nodded into his chest, taking a deep breath before I raised my head. His eyebrows were furrowed, his lips pursed and his eyes still a few shades darker than normal and filled with hesitance. He leans down slowly enough for me to pull away and kisses me, both his hands moving to my waist.
His lips move to my jaw before trailing up towards my ears. He stops as his lips brush over the lobe of my ear. "Please break up with him."
His voice wavered and desperation laced his tone. I shook my head before resting it on his chest again. "I-I don't know." One of his hands found its way into my hair, playing with it while one hand returned to rubbing my back.

"You don't know what babydoll?"
I took a deep breath as I figured out everything I feel or what I want to know why I feel.
"I don't know what I'm supposed to do or how I'm supposed to feel. YOU both killed them and- and I like murders, despite the fact you killed them, you both killed my best friends and I like you still. I have a boyfriend who's a murder and I like HIM...but I like you." Billy pulled back to look at me and smiled. "Did you not hear me doll? It's okay to feel like that, you didn't kill them and when I was dating Sidney you didn't know that I liked you or what we had planned. I want you to be with me, I want you. I know you want me but you want Stu too. And that's okay. You just need to figure out who you want more."
I smiled slightly at him before nodding. It's not right to feel this way but I can't stop feeling this way so I should just go with it. "I'm tired billy, can we go to bed?" A grin spread across his face as he lifted me up bridal style. I gasped smacking his arm. "Warning next time!"
"Next time?" Billy carried me back into his bedroom, kicking the door shut behind us.
He dropped me on the bed, walking to the other side still grinning as he got under the covers, pulling me to his side with an arm wrapped around my waist. He placed a chaste kiss on my temple as I laid my arm across his stomach.
"If you still feel confused we can talk about it in the morning?" I nodded, laying my head on his chest. "Goodnight billy." He sighed lightly as he laid his head back. "Goodnight Y/N."

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Short chapter again Ik...sorry. I promise y'all a longer chapter and I didn't give it. BUT I have a good excuse I got caught up reading a sterek fanfic. (Teen wolf)
Soz but it is well good OH and Enola homes 2 is out soooo. Longer chapter soon not sure when Xxx

Love y'all