if only I knew

Parkers

Konners pov>
Todays the day!! We get to see everybody honestly I'm excited I haven't seen everybody since after there dad beat them the last time and kai found out he didn't do shit really for anybody he let the shit slide when everything happened nick found out after kai called him about there dad abusing the kids that's when everybody left and we stayed here I love my siblings but when we're all together it makes everything better we're not having to worry about anyone missing out on anything because we are all here, anyways back to the point they'll be here later so gav has us cleaning up I'm over here cleaning up someone else's mess which is total bullshit but I would never tell him that I would rather keep my head on my shoulders for a while because I would mess with him when he's in his moods there so annoying and piss me off but we gotta do what we gotta do i guess
caits pov>
watching the clock tick, that's all that I've done for three days straight now. Even though everyone is coming back I'm hurting, every memory, every scar, every punch, every kick, every word, its all coming back like a bullet, everything is coming back at full speed and that shit hurts like hell. Not going to lie I'm happy everybody's coming but deep down I know when they come he comes. I know he knows where we are and where there going he always finds out he always has, he will come back for us and take the last remaining amount of innocence that we all have and laugh in our faces when he does it he always did. That same man haunts me in my dreams to this day even when he's not here physically with me his actions hurt me more then anything. The same scenarios been playing in my head since the day mom and dad told us that they were coming back the scenario of him beating me to a corpse, the ambulance, the hospital, the nurses, everything, that was the day mom and dad tried to end dads life, that was the day after they left. Mom and dad didn't know what was happening there they trusted kai to take care of us while they worked and somehow we trusted kai, I still trust him somewhat he had to have a reason to send us there after he was abused by him right, maybe for revenge I don't know I don't think I want to know anymore.
Luke's pov>
Staring at the wall, the harder I stare at it, it might just burn a hole through it. In my room with cait it's just us everyone else has sent us up here and told us not to worry about helping but I feel like I should it's so quiet in this room I might actually go crazy being in here I'm stuck in my head with the voices, the voices of him to be exact. He was the one who causes me this pain and suffering now I can't even be in a room by myself before the voices take over and want me to do stupid things. kill yourself already tried, your pathetic, yea I know he always told me that. They keep ringing in my ears and I don't know how to make them stop it's just like they want me to fail. She's staring at the clock watching the minutes she's very quiet today but I think it has to do with everything it's something she won't tell me and it's sad because we always tell each other everything I swear, from my first girlfriend to her first boyfriend the secrets in the room stay in this room. I swear we could make a whole tea page on the stuff we've talked about in this room, we could probably ruin many relationships and life's but who cares I'm having fun with my best friend for life I don't give two shits about everyone else's feelings. After everything I thought we could trust kai but he let him do that to us he left him lay a hand on us and didn't stop I fucking hate him, why would he sit there he was supposed to be protecting us and he fucking failed us all of us...
kais pov>
Running. That's all we've been doing, running from the one man that hurt us all. My siblings i left them with him because he threatened me he told me he would take everything from me my life my family my happiness everything so I did what I had to do I left them with the one man they feared the one man who beat them to a corpse and I acted like I didn't care. When I called nick that day he was furious, he was so mad, pissed even that I didn't help. He told me he would kill me if I stepped one foot near his babies again, so I ran as far as I could with my family as much as I want them back I know I can't go back I can never.