Stay B-Side Me

ARTIST: Charis

I sat on my bedroom floor, sobbing. After I had entered the house, I hadn't even been able to make it to my bed. This wasn't good for me, I knew, but I just couldn't  let go of him. Camilo was now making decisions for four people without their consent. It was nothing new. In fact, it was our whole relationship. Camilo didn't believe anyone other than him could be right. And I didn't blame him. His childhood was to blame for that. But still, he had to draw a line. Somewhere...

The door flew open and I choked back a scream before seeing him standing there. Speak of the fucking devil. "CAMILO?" I inspected his face and noticed how red and puffy his eyes were. He had been crying. I immediately felt terrible. I was itching to throw my hands around him and make sure he could never cry again. No. I needed to stand my ground. He had to know he had messed up.  I quickly realigned my features to appear upset, but in reality I was overjoyed that he'd came. I really had needed him. 

"Charis, listen." He inhaled deeply before continuing. "I know I'm not a good person, but you just don't understand how much worse I would be without you. I need you Charis." His tears started spilling again as he walked closer. "I'm so, so sorry Charis. And... if I'm being honest, you would be so much better off without me. But I would be nothing without you. And I know how selfish I'm being, but honestly, I don't care. All I care about, baby," he gently took my hands into his and slowly leaned in, "is you." He placed a soft kiss on my lips and pulled back a bit to look me in the eyes.

My breathing became heavy as I realized what this was about. Where my anger was coming from. "Camilo..." my voice began breaking again and I mentally kicked myself for letting my hard face fall. "I should be apologizing as well. The truth is, I'm scared. I'm scared that this band means more to you than I do. And I'm jealous. I'm jealous to the point of hate. I don't want anyone to take my place when it comes to what you care about-" Camilo's lips met mine again and took my breath as we joined in a passionate kiss. His tears mixed with mine and suddenly that pain disappeared into something else. Something so much deeper. "This is why you're so bad for me," I gasped in between kisses, "I can't even stay mad at you, damn it."

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The sun shone on Camilo's features making him look too damn hot. I gently caressed his face and his eyelashes fluttered open. He shifted in bed and pulled me closer while releasing a soft groan. I loved this man so much. "Lo... my mama comes back in a few hours," I muttered under my breath. His heavy eyelids struggle to stay opened. I didn't blame him. We'd been quite busy last night. He opened his mouth to say something but suddenly fell back asleep. 

I thought a bit before slowly slipping my hand behind him and sticking my finger up his ass. Camilo jolted awake and yelped, "CHARIS!" I started giggling before trying to do it again. He hurried to try to get away from me and the blankets fell off of him revealing his naked body again. I marveled at him before stating, "you know, if we were to break up, your abs would probably be what I'd miss most," I admired. He scoffed and shifted closer to me. "Don't lie. We both know it'd be something a little more... down south."

He grabbed me by the waist and pulled me back under the blankets where we shared a sleepy kiss. We lay in silence for a few minutes before he looked up to find my eyes. I'm glad you're the first thing I saw today-" His phone ringing cut him off. I flinched at the sudden sound and checked to see who was calling. I read his caller tag out loud once locating the phone. "Ken-Ken-amenzie...? Camilo made the strangest nicknames. I glanced back at him to find he had dozed off, once again. 

I answered the call, stating who I was before Kenzie's excited squeal nearly took my hearing. "CHARIS!!! Guess. What." After gaining composure from the deafening sound, I allowed her to proceed. "What?" I grumbled, upset at how she'd left the dinner last night.

"Aditi asked me out!" I felt a wave of "Of Course-Ness" Before realizing how big of a deal this. 

"For real?" I asked in fake disbelief, while climbing out of bed.

"For real." She confirmed. We went out last night again and she asked. I'm so happy!!!

I couldn't help but smile at my friend's excitement, because she had indeed been waiting for this moment for a very long time. I fished through my closet before acquiring an oversized Tee and slipping it over my head. "We have to meet today. You're giving me all the details, okay?" 

"Bet. And where's Camilo? Did you steal his phone again?" 

"No, he's sleeping right now."

"Ooh~ Now we're sleeping together?"

I hung up on her before she could continue and glanced back at Camilo to find him dead asleep on my mattress. I giggled and hopped back into bed, joining him once again. As I began planting tiny kisses all over his face, my door swung open and I jolted up to find my mother standing in the doorway. What a nice morning.