Binded to the Devil

Dear mom and dad, see you soon.

Morning finally came around and I couldn't be happier, everyone was walking around the common room as I waited to be able to go into the shower inside the so called our room. My legs hurt like hell from standing in heels all night. I do not need to say that I did not sleep at all, god if I could I would hit Mattheo with all of my power.

Today is the first day of classes, I hope they go by well and without any problems. Once Mttheo finally opened the door I did as I have to, bowed and greated him properly. I wanted to enter the room and instead he grabbed my troath and slammed me into the wall beside the door. Well fuck here we go again. ''You useless bitch, do you really think you can go inside the room without begging for permision first?'' He threw his books onto the floor and I picked it all up, my eyes glanced at the students who could see it all happen from the common area. What on this planet happened to the sweet boy I knew? The one that would beg his father to let me out of my cell so we could play outside? I should have forgotten that he was ever like that by now already. ''Walk.'' Those were the last words he spoke to me that morning. I walked by his side to the Great hall for breakfast, I was still in my clothes from yeasturday and he sat at the table before chatting with Draco as if nobody saw the hand print on my neck from this morning. Soon Headmaster Dumbledore gave his speach and walked towards the Slytherin table. Somebody save me or kill me, I am begging you. He spoke calmly to Mattheo, all about the dorm and if he wished to change anything about the dorm room. Mattheo smiled at him and spoke like a normal human being, he even thanked the headmaster for the great dorm and proudly said he loves the bathroom the most. The headmaster then turned towards me and spoke to me.

H. D.:'' Miss Blank how was your first night at Hogwards? I do hope you like the room as much as mister Riddle does.''

R: First I bowed and then I spoke trying to seem like i actually slept and showered. ''Thank you very much Headmaster Dumbledore for all your hard work. The night at Hogwards was peaceful and very silent.''

H.D.:''I am very glad to hear you like it. May I ask what happened to your neck miss?''

R:''Please do not worry about it headmaster. It is nothing special and as you know I am not worth your worries and time. I appologise but please do not pay attention to anything like this if you see it again, it is my fault and resault of it, I will make sure it does not happen again.'' Yes I will make sure no one sees any bruises or scars again.

H. D.:''As you wish miss Blank but do know this school is a place where each student's safety is important and taken seriously. Now please sit and enjoy the food that was prepared.''

R:''I am sorry headmaster but that is against the rules of my arrangement and thus I can not.'' I bowed down for the headmaster. He seems like a very caring and thoughtful profesor, no wonder he is a headmaster and so well known in the Wizarding world.

As I bowed the headmaster left and went back to the profesors table. Mattheo just looked at me as I heard Draco tell him to atleast give me some food for the sake of keeping headmaster Dumbledore out of his hair. Mattheo gave me a plate with a toast with butter on it and some fruits on the side. I bowed to him and thanked him for the kidness he is giving me.

As a part of the rules I can never sit at the same table as him so i held the plate and slowly ate my food. I was starving, I wonder if he knows that the Dark Lord did not allow any food to be given to me for the entire week before we arrived.

On todays agenda there are 4 classes, each about 2 hours long. First we went to Charms, profesor Flitwick said I should sit next to Mattheo and he said no because his legs hurt, so he rested them on the chair. I could hear Pansy giggling, what on this planet is wrong with her, you know maybe this kind of thing turns her on. I stood there and wrote down all of the notes for the class.

Up next was History of magic. Do I need to say how that went? Same story again, this time his robes needed their special seat. It was time for Potions and my legs were about to give out by then, this time I was told to sit on the floor because there was no extra chairs. Let me rephrase that, Pansy took up two chairs this time. She was stroking Mattheo's arm and even grabbed his thigh suring the class. At some moment Draco pulled Pansy away and told her to calm down and to not flirt with Mattheo because she will regret it. If only this girl would listen, it would do her good. Finally last class came around and it was a self study.

As we walked into a big classroom, profesor McGonagall was in her seat in the front. She spoke firmly but her voice reminded me of my mother's voice. I could cry hearing someone speak with such a voice, but I was too busy doing my best to keep standing. At some point as we waited by the door, my legs gave out and I swayed backwards into someone. I turned around to appologise and instead I met eyes that looked extremly worried. Who is she and why is she worried? I will admit she has such beautiful long curly hair. I bowed in appology and she told me not to bow to her, I managed to move my head in refusal. If only she knew that if I do that I will be punished. She said she understood. Understood what exactly?

Profesor McGonagall:''Now students, for today's self study you will be mixed up with different houses. There are notes with your names at each table. Work on your homework with your classmates and get to know them, it is important to know your classmates, specially you two.'' As she said those last words she looked at Mattheo and I.

I found my name and I was a bit confused what exactly that meant, untill I heard Pansy complaining that she wanted to sit with Mattheo and how it is not fair that Luna got to sit with him and the twins. I hope the Luna girl will be okey sitting next to that monster. I sat at my seat and I swear my legs just gave out, I am not sure if I will be able to stand up again.

Next to me sat the girl from before and also a boy from Hufflepuff house. The girl spoke first and introduced herself as Hermoine Granger, and the boy was Cedric Digory. In silence I looked at them and nooded while holding the paper with my name. Soon they started talking and asking about me, but I was not allowed to speak so how am I sepouse to anwser them, so instead I started doing Mattheo's homework. My work was interupted when Hermoine stood up walked over to the profesor and then towards Mattheo. What happened next surprised us all, she hit him and started yelling at him how he should atleast consider letting me talk to potencial friends if he does not have the dignity to let me sit properly in any class. I could feel the pain in my wrist like no other. Then he spoke ''you know an eye for an eye, you hit me so I can hit you now.'' as he said that he lifted up his arm to hit her. With the last bit of my strenght I moved and replaced her infront of him as the punch landed. ''Such an interesting slave, oh don't worry I only hit you.'' Right there and then profesor sent everyone out of the room.

As I walked behind Mattheo I could feel the blood dripping down my face to my neck. Oh please let me shower today, I can not walk around with blood on myself. He walked towards the Astronomy tower and I followed, it was just us right there on top, see you soon mom and dad, this is my last moment alive. He sat down with his legs crossed. ''Sit.'' As he commanded I sat down next to him. As I did that he moved me to sit on his lap facing him. Of course I was trying to fight him but it was useless ''stay still'' was enough for me to turn into a rock. I did not dare to breath. People forget that I know very well what he is capable of and I have felt many of his punishments. I looked at his eyes, I knew what was about to happen, another punishment and at that second my mind went blank.

Mattheo's mind

Well what can I do, I saw the fear in her eyes and the relief, she was sitting on my lap barely away from my face after I had punched her and she was not even moved by my actions, this was the moment I realised something, she hoped she would die.

''Here is the deal, I shouldn't have punched you, but when did you get so weak that one punch from me makes you bleed? To add to that question, when did you become this light? You are so light I could kill you with one hand? And don't you dare stay silent, anwser me truthfully.'' I awaited her anwser, but I am not sure if I want to believe what she will say. ''Master, you have always been the strongest, so there is no doubt that you could kill me the moment you decide to.'' Did she really just avoid my questions fully? ''Anwser, now!'' Oh that was enough to make her sit up straight. ''Master as you know, your father, the Dark lord, has had me pass so called special training and redo it for the past month before we arrived.'' Oh so that is how I ended up with the weakest protector of my life in the history. ''Leave, you may enter the room.'' with those words she left and I lit up a cigarette. ''Such a useless cow.''