when the darkness gets too close

Dead Heart

I feel so lonely,

but I don't want anyone near me

I want to befriend everyone

but I also never want to speak to a human again.

I want to feel love,

but a stone surrounds my stupid heart.

I see everyone able to feel, touch and need,

all I need is my peace,

so if you ever get too close to me,

beware that when the winter comes,

you won't feel me,

I'll disappear into darkness,

darkness of my own mind.

It is consuming,

leaves no time to love.

Don't judge, I really am kind

It's just my mind,

It does shit I can't control.

I try really hard to make it stop.

But sometimes it's just done..

Locked away from feelings.

Locked away from affection.

Locked away from warmth.

It's just this coldness surrounding my dead heart.