The Beginning Of The End (On Pause)

III-Continued

"Nothing is weaker or smaller than the man who hurts woman or children. Whether by his actions or his words."

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I quickly put away my journal and run downstairs.

I can already hear Anna yelling and threatening to call the cops.

Is he here?
Is he really here?

As soon as I walk into the hall I see him.

Waves of emotions crash down on me.

I'm aware of everything all of the sudden.

My heart beats drown out any noise.

I'm conscience of every breath I take.

I feel so heavy, and my knees buckle under the pressure.

The only person who ever abused me more than myself, is standing right at my front door..

Jared starts yelling at me and then he instantly speaks so calmly.

He does it so easy.

Like he just flipped a switch.

J:
"I finally found you, you fucking bitch!"
"How in the hell did you think you could escape me?!"
G:
"Leave me alone Jared!"
"I don't belong to you anymore!"
"You can't control me now."

As soon as those words had left my mouth, Jared reared back and slapped my face.

I sat there stunned, my cheek stung, and I could feel the tears falling from my face.

He gently grabbed my face, and caressed my cheek with his thumb.

His eyes had the same falsely-caring and sadistic look to them from when we had dated.

He apologized for hurting me and said many words.

He spoke of false tales that I had hurt him by leaving, and that it is all my fault for the pain we had suffered.

I felt so many emotions and everything was so overwhelming.

I could still hear Anna yelling and screaming.

Her sobs were loud and tiring as she was trying to get a hold of the police.

It was as if time had slowed, and I'm not sure if I felt like I was already dead. I knew that it was over.

Whatever happiness I had left, was gone.

Jared slammed is lips into mine, his hands still gripping my face.

His lips crashing onto mine with such force, craving anything he could get.

He moved his hands around groping me as much as he could.

I was scared, I was so scared.

I pushed him as hard as I could, but his hold was way too strong.

I starting slapping him as much as I could, and kicking whenever it was possible.

All of my attempts to escape were failing.

Finally I ended up biting his lip as hard as I could, which resulted in his lip bleeding pretty bad.

He let go by surprise and touched his lip.

Seeing the blood, he instantly starting yelling at me and trying to hit me.

He got me a couple of times.

Anna tried to help but he just pushed her back.

And then he punched me.

I fell back in a matter of seconds but it felt like forever.

I dazed in and out of what I think was reality.

I heard sirens.

Then I'd black out.

Anna screamed bloody murder.

Blacked out

I felt myself being lifted onto what felt like a stretcher.

I blacked out again.

I heard Anna say she loved me and lots of adults yelling frantically.

People telling me that I'll be alright.

My head was throbbing.

My throat felt so dry.

What's going on?

I was so confused.
"Don't worry sweet girl, we got you.
The doctors are gonna fix you up.
Keep fightin', strong baby girl."

And then I blacked out for the last time..