Sunsets

one.

Pete's hands shaking as he saw the test result of all the laboratory test and others that's he's been doing for days. The symptoms are showing for months but he ignored it. His been busy doing a lot of work plus his grandmother needs him whenever she calls. He is just waiting for the doctor to give him the diagnosis.

He knows his sick but he doesn't want to be bothered by it. He doesn't want to be affected.

The doctor in front of him sitting on his table looked at him, as he looked to Pete with a sad eyes. " You have a stage 4 leukemia Pete. I am so sorry but there is a little chance of survival."

Tears flowing from his eyes. He wiped it. He doesn't want to show his weakness. Not even to his doctor who just delivered the worst news of his life. There was silent in the room for a few minutes.

" Option is you can do chemotherapy but as I said before, There is a little chance that you will survive. We can set dates for every session." The doctor advised him.

" How long will I live?" Pete asked.

" Six months."

Those two words broke Pete's heart. six months is short. He is too young to die. He is actually not scared of dying. He understand it's part of life. His mom already passed away when he was young. He knows how it feels when someone said goodbye but it will be different if died. He is scared that he will not do all the things that he wanted. Those six months is a short period of time and he will never know if it's shorter or if got lucky, he will be given another 6 months. He doesn't deserved this.

His heart beats so fast. He thinks of what can he do for the remaining six months.

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Vegas was looking at the window of the bus where he is in now. He is going to a far away place. He made a decision after thinking about it a couple of times. He will be gone for months. Never to be seen by his family.

For the past few days, He always gone into fights with his dad. Vegas felt that his dad never like him for what he is. Ever since his father found out his real sexual identity, they will always argue and run into fights. It was constant and happened everyday. His father blaming him from losing his mother. To not being the best son he ideally wanted to be to being compared to his cousin- Kinn who his whole family looked up to.

But it escalated quickly when his father forced him to marry the daughter of one of his business partners. Which he firmly declined. He never liked woman and he will never do it even if he didn't have any choice.

" You don't have a choice but to follow my orders." Kan said to his son. He confronted him in their dining table while he, his dad and his younger brother Macau were having a dinner together.

"I can't dad. I am sorry. You know I am gay and I can't date someone like her. She might be a nice and decent woman but she is not my type." He said honestly to him.

His father stand up and suddenly slapped him in his face. " Don't you dare to tell me about who is your type or not. You are just my son and it's your responsibility to follow my orders."

"Dad. You have to calm down." Macau who is just having his dinner stand up and shield his elder brother who is still surprised for what just happened.

" You are not involve in this." He pointed to Macau. " Go to your room. Now!" He shouted.

" Okay dad." Macau sighed. He looked disappointed that he can't protect his brother. He leaves the dining room and do as what Kan said.

Tears are falling from Vegas eyes. He have enough. He was always hiding from this family's shadow that he lost his identity. " Dad. I will never be married to her or anyone you wanted." Vegas then stand up from the table.

" Fine. Forget that you're my son. Leave this house and don't go back until you know how to be a man." Kan ordered to his son

He decided to pack his bags. He have enough money for a few days. He will survive. He can work with part time jobs. He decided to go to somewhere. Near the beach where he can think of what he wanted to do. He needs to reset and think a thousand times of what he really wanted to do.

He looked at an ad of air BnB in the resort that he will go through. There is actually a decent and cheap house he can rent for a week.

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The view of the ocean is actually beautiful. Pete is sitting in the sand looking at the calm ocean and blue skies. He was smiling. He finally reach his destination. He decided to stay in this beach until his last days.

He already informed his best friend and colleague Porsche about his condition and to take care and look after his grandmother when he is gone. His grandma doesn't have any idea that he is already Ill but he don't want him to worry about him until his last breath. She is too old enough and frail to accept news like this. It will be too much for her.
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He grabs a pen and notebook from his bag. He decided to write every day of his life until he died. He actually wanted to remind himself how he will live his life in his last days.

First day.
I am staring at the beach. I am telling myself how great and beautiful this day is... The view outside of my house is actually wonderful. I wanted to play some music while I am sitting here in the sand. Maybe "What a Wonderful World." By Louis Armstrong. I will live my life to the fullest and hopefully I will fulfill my wishes before I die....

I'll write again tomorrow..

He then grabbed his phone and play the music while staring at the beautiful ocean. He relaxed for a few minutes. He then sits and calmly meditate. Closing his eyes and think of what could he do for the next days that he will live. He actually wants to go in the middle of the ocean at night and stares at the beautiful stars. He actually wanted to dive and see the beautiful living beings and corals under the ocean. He wanted to hike and explore the mountains. But he realized he is too frail now. He suddenly cried and felt that he will not be able to do those things with him all alone. He then wipe tears in his face. He don't want to be sad but the feeling of anxiety and pressure haunts him. He suddenly decided to go back to his house.

He rented a house near the ocean. He actually got a great deal in Airbnb and he already paid for it for a month. It is fully furnished. With complete appliances and others stuffs he needs for his stay.

He was actually surprised that the door of the house is unlocked. He remembers that he locked it. He opens it and enters. He was about to go to his room when he saw a man sitting on a sofa chair in his living room.

Pete flinched and grab a pepper spray in his bag. " Who are you?"

The guy stands and as surprised as Pete. "I should be asking that? Who are you?"

" What? This is my house. I rented and paid this for a month."

" No I was the first here.." The man answered back.

Pete's phone rings. And he grabbed it. The phone number was from the owner of the house. He answered it. " Hello. What?" He then looked at the guy sharply.