Long gone

The Rush

I gripped into his shirt and dug in I yelled out as tears rushed out of my face " No I am not leaving with~hhout you " I cried as hard as I could, I couldn't explain my pain that I was having.

My heart was shattered into millions of pieces, my warm tears streamed out of my eyes, my nose was red, my eyes were all puffy, but I didn't care.

I wanted to be with austine he always, cared about me, loved me, and we knew each other ever since we were born.

He wrapped his arms around me and whispered as tears stroke out of his eyes " I am sorry maddy~~ I...I love you with all my heart, and anything in this world." and I yelled out " then why can't you come with me can't you just come!"

I felt his grip getting tighter as I bursted out "I...I I am sorry I am really sorry " my knuckles turned white as I made my hands into a harder fist, then I pulled him closer.

I couldn't stand it why did I have to leave this place, my home, where I lived for my whole entire life, I couldn't just forget my hometown, my head was full of thoughts.

Then he said " maddy " I looked up " I am sorry I want to be with you but..." before he finished his sentence I blurred out, " then come with me ",

his face hardens, and continued " I am sorry I can't " tears came out of his eyes and I yelled " WHY NOT!!!"

His face was in shame, mad, depressed I was mad my face broke into anger, then I felt a loose grip I looked at him with big eyes and he looked down as he backed up I yelled " nononoNoNONO!" he looked at me put his hand on my face and I held my hand on his hand,

And he was about to let go, and I heard my mom crying so hard, I heard her choke and cough, as my dad was gripping her, making she doesn't faint or fall, and Daniela ( she is mrs. Lazpem ) had tears streaming over as she was beside my mom and also Daniel ( mr. Lazpem ) was there with my parents.

I coughed as I gripped tighter, and tried to pull him closer to me but, he kept getting farther and farther.

Till he looked me for the final time, and took my arms out, so that I wasn't gripping him anymore, but I kept crying hard, and tried to push back to him as hard as I could.

Till he said as he started to tear down " I am sorry maddy " then he turned back and took of I ran after him, till somebody gripped onto me and pushed me back.

I tried kicking and pushing away as hard as I could and I kept yelling his name, more tears fell from my eyes, I felt like a ten million pound medal just dropped on me, and ten thousands needles poking me.

I felt so tired, but tried not to give up till he was out of sight, I heard someone saying " maddy... maddy stop " it was my dad I yelled back " NO I DON'T WANT TO, I HAVE A CHOICE TO, AND YOU DIDN'T TELL ME, AND WHY THE HELL DIDN'T YOU EARLIER "

My dad looked as if he was ashamed he let go of me and I took of, like a bull trying to kill the person, I ran where I saw austine the last time, he wasn't there I yelled out " AUSTINE COME BACK, AU~sniff sniff* STINE CO...ME BACK !" he didn't respond or come I yelled and screemed, couple of times,

and dropped to the floor like a defeated warrior, I felt the cool grass, touching my skin, the calm wind brushed against my touch, my tears running down my cheek, I curled myself, nobody with me.

Then I heard " mad~dy I...I I I am sorrry " I cried and yelled out" leave me alone!"my mom tried to hold back her tears and said " I know I cough* I I wasn't the best mo~m evevr." There was a long pause, " I thought if I~ told you earlier... I thought you were going to be sniff sniff* going to-" before she finished her sentence,