Blurred Lines

Wow

*E's POV*

Why does she keep calling me he? I mean I don't mind I kind of like it but does she know I'm actually not a boy? Why do I even care? Admit it you like her. How could I like someone I didn't even know?

I walk through the door and take my seat getting lost in thought when she walks in the room.

"Nice of you to join us Ms...." The teacher stops

"Naomi, it's Naomi" She says while looking around.

"Thank you Naomi, please have a seat next to Emilia." He points to where I am.

Fuck.

Her eyes met mine and widen but she quickly tries to compose herself and her eyes advert to the ground. She sits in the seat stiff as a piece of cardboard beside me and not once does she look my way. Her cheeks are red and her eyes are fixated on the teacher .

But my eyes are fixated on her...studying her.

Why is she so tense? Her cheeks are a crimson red? I must make her uncomfortable but I didn't even do anything. I don't want her to feel that way around me. Say something, something like what? Hey I know you thought I was a boy but my genitalia says otherwise - it's okay though because I don't identify as a girl either so how's the weather? Ughhhh.

She puts her head down and just as I open my mouth to say something the bell rings and she jets out so fast.

Yup...she's definitely uncomfortable.

I get up and walk to my next class hoping not to run into Naomi. I don't want to think about her the rest of the day besides I barely even know her why do I care so much about her comfort?

She's different, I don't know how I know but I can literally feel it all over me. How can I make her comfortable? I've known this girl not even a whole 24 hours and she's holding my brain captive. I need to stop thinking about her; feelings bring problems and I already have enough of those at home I don't need any more.
Speaking of home, fuck fuck fuck. Did I hide the alcohol and pills? Damnit I can't remember. It's going to be a long night.

I manage to somehow get through the rest of the day and as I'm walking into the parking lot to walk home I see Naomi standing outside of her car. I act like I don't see her and keep walking.

"Really?" She calls out.

Keep walking E, keep walking. You got this. You don't need anymore problems.

"Let me at least explain, okay? Please E just 5 minutes. Please."

Fuck, fuck. Why are my feet stopping? Why am I turning around? Why do I want to hear her out?

I stop and turn around to face her direction but not walking towards her.

"You're gonna make me come to you, aren't you?" She says as she walks toward me.

I hold back a smirk and maintain my blank stare.

Holy fucken shit Naomi is so damn beautiful. That midnight blue lipsticks brings out her golden brown eyes. She's shorter than me at about 5'2 and her braids fall right at her waist.
She's wearing neon orange cargo pants and a tan crop top with an alien on it saying "women rule the world"

I think I'm in love... wait wtf did I just say? Snap out of it.

"Did you hear what I said E?" She asks now right in front of me.

I just wanted to wrap my arms around her and kiss her.

I shake my head no.

"Ugh, I'm sorry about earlier. I thought you were a boy and then you didn't correct me and I just felt so embarrassed and dumb for just assuming and I didn't know how to handle that so I ran away. But then I realized that I should explain myself because I didn't want you thinking it was you when it was me and I- just I thought you were a boy but now you're a girl and this changes things because I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm not attracted to-"

"Girls." I cut her off.

"Yes.." she starts twirling her hair.

Do I make you nervous?

I step in a little closer.

"Naomi, I'm not a girl. It's really hard to explain but I don't identify with being a 'girl' " I say in air quotes.

"I'm just E" I say smirking.

She looks at me and I can tell she's lost in thought so I cut the conversation short.

"Well I accept your apology but I have to go" I wave at her and start walking away.

She grabs my wrist

"Slow down, I'll give you a ride" she says softly.

Is it possible for someone's voice to sound like velvet? Hers is literal music to my ears. Where the fuck did this girl come from?

I turn around and she's so close to me and her face was inches away from mine.

I've never wanted to kiss someone so bad in my life.

Why is she so damn sexy? Just why?

I look into her eyes and she turns away. Walking with her hand still on my wrist I follow her without hesitation.

I'd follow you anywhere.

"Get in" she says as she let's go of my wrist.

I walk around and open her door for her.

"As long as I'm around you'll never touch a door." I say closing the door before she can object.

I get in the car and she pulls off blasting American Idiot by Greenday.

I smile while watching her jam out.

I tell her to drop me off where she picked me up this morning.

Before I get out I thank her for the ride but before I pull off she lets down the window.

"I'll pick you up tomorrow morning at this spot but this time on time so 7 am, got it?" She laughs

"Yes ma'am." I salute her smiling as she pulls off.

There's an attraction between us, I feel it. I want her. That's foreign for me to say because I had people before but Naomi isn't just people she's different. I want to get to know her and know more about her. I can't read her like I can other people and it drives me crazy but in a good way.

As soon as I walk through the door I see Evelyn aka my mother passed out on the couch.

Fuck...here we go again.