UNHOLY | H.S. A.U.

Chapter 4

TW BRIEF TALK OF ABORTION AND SELF DEPRECATING THOUGHTS

6 months later

Andrea

I haven't heard from Harry since that night at Hard Candy. He seemed to have disappeared off the face of the earth. And I have no way to reach him. No phone number, no address, nothing. Not even a google search would bring anything to light. I went so far as to ask some other mothers at Scarlett's preschool and the office there. Nothing could be told to me. Nothing from anyone at the club either.

My thoughts are disrupted by a tapping on my swollen tummy as I'm making myself and Scarlett's breakfast. "How many more sleeps until baby's here, mommy?" Scarlett asks as her green eyes peer up at me, the baby in my stomach kicking her hands, causing Scarlett to recoil with a giggle.

"Not for many more sleeps! The baby still has a whole 3 months worth of growing to do!" My heart aches that I'll have another baby without a father. More sleepless nights of feeding and changing that I'll be doing alone. More mouths to feed. More money. Luckily, I've been able to bartend at Hard Candy. Niall has been extremely generous with letting me keep my job. I asked him about Harry but he claims to not know anything.

"Trust me, love. If you can't reach Harry, he doesn't want to be reached. I've learned over the years. I couldn't even reach him if I tried."

I think he knows that the baby is Harry's. He's smart enough to put two and two together but he's also kind enough to not ask any questions. Harry took Evelyn out of the program too. Something about moving but it's all a bunch of rumors. No one's heard a thing from him since. I wonder if he's heard. If he knows I'm pregnant but thinks I just want his money. Or if I was trying to baby trap him. Would it be nice to have a second income? Absolutely. But what I want most is for my baby to have a father. But who would know if he would even want this baby? Would he have made me get an abortion? Would he demand I give up the baby? To the second question, I still don't have my answer. Am I even going to keep them? I know that considering my financial situation, it wouldn't be smart to keep them. But Scarlett has asked for a little brother or sister since she could talk. Plus, she's so excited to be a big sister. What would I tell her?

Granted, it probably wasn't smart to tell Scarlett but how would I explain my growing stomach? She didn't need to go around telling people that mom was getting fat. People already know that. That's general knowledge.

"But I want the baby now!" Scarlett whines as she throws her head back and stomps her feet a little.

"I know, Red, but we need the baby to grow big and strong so they can play with you! Now show me how strong you are and bring your plate to the table please." I hand her an empty plate after she flexes her muscles.

"I'm super strong, mommy! Papa said I was!" She giggles as she gingerly places her plate on the table. That girl and her Papa.

Kendall's parents have made themselves Scarlett's grandparents. Kendall and I have known each other since we were two years old. She's out in LA now, living out her dream of being a lawyer. She's a bigshot now. Making close to 9 figures every year. But because of her big girl job, it also means she doesn't have much time for me or Scarlett. I understand. I still see her at Christmas and Thanksgiving with a couple of facetime calls here and there. She was the first person I told about Harry and I and what led to our baby. And she has been nothing but supportive of me. She offered resources and money but of course, the pride instilled in me from my father turned down the money. I'm not a charity case. I'm not someone who will just take money from people. I have the need to earn it myself. Hence the reason I am also doing some work for Kendall on the side for when Scarlett is at school. Just different filing and paperwork. Most of it is legal jargon I don't understand.