If something happens to me this is why

This is why I am gone

Samuel Cox November 21 2022

I am writing this before the things I am predicting here happen and before things got ugly for me in so many ways. (See date this was last updated at the bottom). This will explain what happened to me and what is happening to me that nobody knows anything about. As hard as this is to believe I promise you what you are about to read here is true.

This is the real reason why I am going to be gone soon, "who" or what killed me and other things I just need to say in regards to my shocking story. I am going to keep this short...

One of the reasons I have to write this and post it online is not only because of how scared I am, I feel the need to cry for help and "vent" but also because the things I just needed to tell someone about and everything I would like to say before my time comes, I can't because I am unable to communicate verbally anymore and haven't been able to for a long time so I could never talk to anybody about... Well anything... If this is what has been happening to you all of your life then you would most definitely just need somebody to talk to about it with but I can only say a few things verbally as my mental health has deteriorated over the years so I couldn't. Also normally a person cannot know they are about to die unless they are physically ill or suicidal. I am neither. I know my time has come for reasons nobody would even take seriously until my "predictions" mentioned here happen so some of what I want said I'll have to do by writing this for it to be read after I am gone.

I am not being permitted by God to share the shocking story of what has been happening to me all of my life due to a very dangerous hand I got dealt and I found out the reason why I can't but there are a few things that I just need to say. I know very well what chapter of this crazy story I am at now... The end of my natural life which means it's about to get very ugly for me at some point soon probably in more than one way. I am honestly surprised I am still here. I have been saying this for awhile, that my time has come and I am sure there are people who are sick of hearing this, I don't know exactly how long I have now so I have this hidden on my Facebook profile and on my Reddit account as well as at the bottom of my other Wattpad story so there is no reason why this should be read by anyone until after I am gone.

The main reason why I am in so much trouble with God is because of what happened to my Grandfather, a special kind of man of God who walked closely with him all of his life, a saint but he was convinced that I was a gift from God (see cover picture for this story) and when he saw that I was the complete opposite of what he was expecting during my teen years when I was still conquered by many addictions, to the point he lost his faith completely near the end of his life and was eventually lead to believe God just did something scary to him and God is holding me responsible for it because of how tragic his story is and it kills me that I won't ever get to speak to him again to tell him I am sorry, that I didn't know anything about what was happening to the both of us while he was still alive, I love him and will always be thinking of him.

What I didn't know at the time was I had a calling that I found out about later on in life after the door to my calling and salvation shut officially a long time ago because God had no option but to reject me. There is no point in mentioning what the calling was because no one would ever believe a total nobody like me would ever have a calling like this but for whatever reason I did and I had to experience the reality of God and the Devil in my life because of it way more than what is normal for a person to and to this day I still have too. He has something very personal with me because of what the calling was. He has been in communication with me in my nightmares since I was 15 years old but since I am almost at the very end now he has been in active communication with me almost every time I am asleep letting me know more information about what he got me in regards to that "darkest parts of Hell" he promised me in my dreams when I was 15 years old there was a plan in place to get me too, a sin he could never get me to commit that he wanted me to know about, that he is giving up on this disturbing project he put a lot of work into now as there is no point in trying anymore (implying my time is almost up) and something else that he prepared for me a long time ago that I am going to be finding out soon what that is likely just before it's time to get me there.