Things I couldn't Say

Meddle

I might just need to confess,
When I think about what happened recently,
I suddenly can't feel free,
I feel extremely restless.
It feels like something is crushing my throat,
I tried to express myself,
But it's like trying to sing, without emitting a single note,
And I can only blame myself.

I know that I'm the reason why everything is happening,
My confidence is slowly shattering,
I'm losing my composure,
I can't stand all the pressure,
I guess I'm relapsing.
I'm afraid to rely on help,
As I'm sinking deep into the abyss,
But you cannot listen to a single of my yelps,
Because you are enjoying your bliss.
I truly regret everything that I've done,
Because everything I cared for is now gone.

You never have tried to help me,
Or never have showed me empathy.
You called me delirious and crazy,
I think you don't understand how much, literally.
You've hurt me so bad,
It would be a miracle if I didn't turn out mad.
And yet, you have the nerve to look at me,
As if you cared, truly.

You've never tried to address our several conflicts really,
And even less tried to settle,
You've never thought about the damage it inflicts upon me,
So why would I allow you to treat me like I'm someone special,
And be dejected when you'll leave me completely?
Don't fucking try to meddle.