My Heart is Torn( 1D fanfic)

Chapter 6

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-Once In A Lifetime

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-Normal.. No Longer

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Chapter 6

Roxxi's POV

I woke up in Zayn's arms, my eyes sore from all the tears I cried last night. I looked up at Zayn to see if he was awake, when I met his eyes he smiled down at me.

"Morning Roxx"

I returned the smile, "Morning Zayn."

I sat up straight, self-conscious of my weight leaning on him. I looked around the room, the other boys are gone.

"Where'd the boys go?" I looked back up to Zayn to see his hair still looking perfect, his gorgeous brown eyes looking down at me and his crooked smile flashed across his face.

"Why do you miss them?" He laughed while poking me.

"Yess, I miss my boys!" I poked him back. We both laughed together, glad that the mood has been lifted.

"They've just gone to buy some breakfast. McDonalds!"

I nodded and turned back around, looking up and down the hallway. I'm not really that hungry so I'll pass on breakfast.

"Well I can't just shut down Zayn. I promised my dad, when he told me about the time when his twin brother died in a car crash, he shut down, pushed the world away and ignored everything. He told me how horrible it was and he asked me to promise him that when he leaves or if anything happens to Ny, he asked me that I stay strong, go on as normal. He said it's ok to be sad but don't shut the world out, keep my closest friends with me and take their support. My dad asked me to promise this, so I did and I have to keep that promise. I knew I would have to some day, but it's just way too quick. It wasn't meant to happen now Zayn! For either of them!"

I felt tears forming again and I was on the verge of crying. Zayn wrapped his arms around me tightly,

"It's okay Roxx, you'll keep the promise, I know you will. I'll help you through this and so will the boys. We're here for you Roxx. I know it was too soon but we can't help what life throws at us, we just have to deal with it and move on. Your a strong girl Roxx."

He kissed the top of my head and I hugged him back.

"Thanks Zayn, your amazing. Her funeral is going to be next week."

"Ok, that's good. We'll help organise everything too."

I smiled to myself, happy that I'd have the boys to help me out.

I heard whispering behind me and turned around to meet the boys worried gazes. I smiled brightly to them and they all looked relieved.

"Morning boys!" I laughed.

"Morning Roxxi!" They all said in unison,

"We bought some breakfast"

Harry said handing me one of the bags. I'm not hungry but I'll take it anyway,

"Thanks boys."

I took the bag and set it down beside me. The boys all took seats in the chairs they were in before and dug into their breakfast. Liam looked over at me and noticed I wasn't eating, "Roxxi, you gonna eat your breakfast?"

"No, I'm not that hungry, Niall you want it?"

I held the bag in the air, waving it around for him to take it.

"You sure Roxxi? You should eat it." Niall turned down food straight away...wow, he must be worried about me.

"Naah, it's alright. I'll get some food when I'm hungry."

I stood up from my position on the floor in Zayn's arms and walked over to Niall to give him my food.

He grabbed the bag but didn't take it from my grip,

"You sure?"

He looked up at me making sure that I wasn't hungry. I let go of the bag and nodded happily,

"I'm sure Niall! It's okay!"

I started walking down the hallway to find a toilet.

"Where ya going?"

Zayn grabbed onto my hand to stop me from walking,

"Just going to the toilets, ok?"

He smiled, happy with my answer obviously, "Ok, don't be too long."

I nodded and set down the hall to look for a toilet. I turned around the corner and found a toilet sign up ahead. I walked into the toilets and looked at myself in the mirror.

"Holy crap." I stared at the ugly, worn girl in the reflection. My hair was a mess, my face red from the tears, I had bags under my eyes and I just looked horrible. I washed my face a fee time and redid my hair into a messy bun at the back of my head, I'm not a fan of the hairstyles like buns on top of my head. Not really to my liking. I fixed up my clothes and went to the toilet before heading back out. It's so hard to act happy infront of the boys, I've lost 2 of the most important people in the world that I love.

I ran back into the bathroom, crying once again. I can't let the boys see me like this, they need to see me getting on with life, being strong. But really I'm just hiding my sadness from them. I don't want to have to keep doing this..

That's it, I won't keep doing this.

I walked out of the bathroom and rushed out of the hospital to make a break for it. As soon as I made it out the hospital doors I ran for it. My vision still blurry from the tears but I know exactly where I'm going.