This is a little sudden but it is something I've been keeping for around seven (or eight) months.
Truth to be told, I like you.
I figured you've known by now already since you are far from stupid plus I think I'm being awfully transparent and obvious already, but if by some sort of miracle you still haven't know, then now you do.
And of course, I am confessing to you with getting rejected in mind, I am also not stupid you know, I figured you already have a girlfriend by now and I'm happy for you !! ^-^ .
I just wanted to let out my feelings, its been kept for too long and if I kept it in still, I don't think I can ever move on with my life.
But even if you were someone I like, you were my friend first before anything. And I cherish our friendship more than anything else.
You are genuinely one of the kindest and have the prettiest soul I've ever met, which was why I like you in the first place (I think). You are also bright, and always stand with your own opinion and perspective, which I admire a lot in you, especially when I don't (think) have those qualities in me.
Seeing at how smart you are makes me want to study more so that I can be proud of myself and maybe, so that you could also be proud of me. You were quite the opposite of me, and seeing at how bright you shine made me strive to become a better person altogether.
I think I realise my feelings for you when I was going back to school. I got incredibly sad because you weren't there with me, I can't even see you, I can't even talk to you, it was just sad. I miss your presence, I think about you often, and I write a lot about you in my book as if the whole book was dedicated just for you.
And when I'm home, the first thing I do was wanting to ask you how you and your cats were doing. I wanted to know if you were sad, if you were happy, if you were angry, and the reasons behind it.
And honestly, I'm not much of a social person and I don't really enjoy talking to people via text, but for you, it was different. I liked talking to you a lot, even when my fingers hurt from typing a lot, and I look forward to your text all the time, even if I didn't reply for a long time due to my low social battery.
I'm also not the one to start the first move on a guy, but I keep bending my rules for you. I stayed up late to tell you ghosts stories, I downloaded and attempt to try play your favourite games even when I suck at it so bad, its embarrassing.
We only talked for a while I know, but for some odd reason, my mind kept coming back to you. I think because even though our time was short, it was one of the sweetest time I had in a while and maybe the reason why I kept coming back to you, was because in those short moments was truly the first time I felt so loved by a certain someone. You made me feel something I've never experienced before. And thank you for that.
I want to thank you for everything. For being nice to me, for showing me your passions and interests, for giving me a chance to get to know you, for being a friend I can be comfortable with, a friend I can look up to, for being you, the person who I came to adore so much. Just know that I've never once thought of hating you, I like you way too much for that. ^-^
I'll try to get over you slowly, time can cure all wounds, that I believe. And when that day comes, I hope you'll be able to welcome me as your friend with open arms. I'd hate it if our friendship becomes all awkward and ruined because of my insignificant feelings.
I hope you take good care of yourself, never skip your meals and prayers (while you're at it pray for my happiness and health too ^^), study well and always be happy and grateful with your life.
Sincerely your coolest friend,
