BILLIE-HALES & ZEALOUS

Chapter 6

CHAPTER SIX

BILLIE-HALES:
As I walk out of what will be my new college, I take a deep breath. I'm still feeling my hands shake a little just knowing that my life is going somewhere. I just hope that by the end of it I have something to show for it.

"Hey, Baby-B."
As soon as I hear that name, I instantly know who it is. It causes a shit-eating grin to spread across my face. So when I turn my head toward his voice I see him. He's sitting propped up against someone's car.
I know it's not his, only because he's still in the process, of doing his driving lessons. Oh god, he looks amazing. He also looks pretty hungover, so I'm assuming he had a good night.
However, I can't stop this feeling though this feeling in my stomach. Again he's causing shit to happen just by knowing that he's here. Well, it's making my stomach dance. Only when I reach him and asked how he was doing, I notice something different. No, it's not the hungover part. No, he seems different somehow. It's like he's holding back like he's.
Oh god, I think I know what it is. He's either, taking the hint I won't fall for his shit, or he'd hooked up with someone last night.
Did he hook up with someone? Oh god, I bet that's why he didn't answer my text too. Don't ask me how I know this I guess I just sense it.
Wow, this sucks. Slap three in my face. Yep, that's the third box ticked to the list of why I shouldn't be anywhere near this man. He's no good for me or my heart, but damn it, I still want him to want me.

"Are you okay?" He asked and I just give a little nod of my head while telling him, I'm fine. Then I plaster my fake smile. It's the same fake smile I mastered a long time ago. That was when my so-called friends began letting me down.

"I'm fine. What, brings you here? I mean, aren't you meant to be working?" I asked and point towards the main gates, silently telling him I'm heading out.
Sadly, Hope had to leave because there was an emergency at home. Of course, I told her it was fine. I'll just grab the bus or walk since I don't live that far from the college. I ended up grabbing the bus home though, only because I didn't want to walk home. Not if it meant I had to spend more time with him, especially knowing he met someone last night too. He protested and said he'd come with me, but of course, I told him my parents were expecting me home. And just before I stepped onto my bus, he called out to me.

"Wait, Billie."
He didn't call me baby. Wow, she must've been good, especially for him to forget about me and so quickly too.
"Yeah, Zealous, what is it?"
I see the shock in his eyes too. He knows that something is up because when he asks if I'm still up for tonight. Well, I see the uncertainty almost worry in his eyes.
"Yeah, yeah, I'm still coming. I mean, what are friends for, huh?"
I end that by sending him a little smile. Only it's a bittersweet smile. Obviously, he made his mind up last night. He ditched me after spending all night with me and then the next day, only for him to get pulled away. He left me for a few hours and as soon as someone came his way, he forgot all about me. So it's clear Zealous-Junior Dalton, really doesn't want me. Well, not enough to stay away from other women anyway.
When I told him the part about friends, I watched his face. I'd made sure he'd see I knew what he'd done. I'd shown him he fucked up any chances of us being anything more than just friends. Oh god, this really hurts. I was so hoping he'd prove me wrong, and that he wasn't the man-whore I thought him to be.
I didn't even ask why he'd shown up there. I just walked to the bus stop with a heavy heart. He didn't say much either, because he knew what he did fucked everything up. It will take a lot of work to fix this. Yes, we've only known each other for a short time. It's not even been two full days yet, but I also have a feeling that this is not over yet either.

While I sit at the back of the bus, an elderly man sits beside me. I'm not sure of what's showing on my face, but he ends up asking me if I'm okay. Only before that though, he asked if my shoes are clean, only because I have them up on the seats.