The Flower that Blossoms

3.

Idiot! Idiot! Idiot! Ciel how could you be such a idiot to let that maniac by your body. God. My female hormones went crazy. My face is all red and I can't even focus. I quickly got up and turned off my lamp. I jumped into bed and laid there into the pillows. God! I'm such a idiot! My legs kicked in the air. He is still as handsome as before. I can't go back to him, I mustn't. I squealed into my pillow until my phone dinged. I sat up quickly and grabbed my phone on my nightstand. I turned it on to see Quin messaged me.
'Are you awake?'
I shook my head. Why is he texting me.
'Yes why?' I responded.
'I just thought I should text you and tell you i'm thankful. My father threatened to kick me out and all i can seem to do in person is be such a dick.' He replied.
Wow. Kicked out?
'You're fine, i'll see you tomorrow.' I quickly placed my phone down and laid in bed. Time quickly passed as I tried to fall asleep.
I couldn't sleep after 3 hours of fighting to go to bed knowing that Zack is here. The sexual fantasies I had of him were to overbearing.
I don't want to crave him. I quickly forced myself to bed. I finally fell asleep. That night I felt someone climb into bed with me and hug me tightly. The small echo's of i'm sorry and please forgive me followed behind with sobs. The warmth of another persons body felt nice. It made me dream of Zack. Oh god how I've missed you. I hugged what I thought was my pillow as the sunshine hit my eyes. I opened them up squinting. I realized I was laying on someone. I quickly sat up and saw it was Zack. I was shocked. His body has changed. He was more muscular. I placed my hand on his chest and he quickly grabbed my arm. I let out a small scream.
"Did I scare you?" Zack grinned.
"What are you doing in my bed?!" I yelled.
"Thought I'd invite myself in since your dreaming about me. I heard it from my room. Those small whimpers of my name." He mocked me.
"Fuck you." I said getting out of bed and going to the bathroom. I brushed my hair and teeth. Zack appeared behind me.
"You are still so beautiful." He spoke softly as he placed his hands on my hips while I was brushing my teeth. I rolled my eyes and spit out the tooth paste. I turned off the sink.
"Don't you have other women to go talk to you?" I said walking out the bathroom and back into my room. I got changed into suitable clothes that are meant for fall.
"Ciel stop being hard and talk to me for real." Zack said walking back into my room.
"Talk to you? It took you 2 years to speak to me? You expect me to offer you a few seconds of my life when you couldn't even do the same?" I said distraught.
"Look. Things didn't end well okay. I understand. I got back into liquor and started to sleep around when I should've been with you." Zack said pleading.
"I don't forgive you." I spoke confidently.
"Okay you don't have too. Let's just start brand new." Zack suggested.
"Brand new? As an you sleep with me whenever you want?" I questioned.
"No!" Zack said embarrassed.
I crossed my arms.
"I slept in today because of that warmth. That warmth I should've felt continuously without you sleeping around. Without my nights crying and wondering why I wasn't good enough for you. It's over. We are over." I stated. Those words hurt me so much to say but they hurt him as well. He couldn't even form a full sentence and he quickly walked out the room and into his room slamming the door.
I sighed. He acts still like a child. I looked at the time to see it's 3 p.m. Why didn't anyone wake me up?! I pulled out note books and pencils. I went downstairs and told the maids to prepare snacks and drinks. I went back upstairs and saw his door still shut. There were small whimpers. I opened the door slightly to peak through it. Those soft whimpers were tears. My face grew of shock, why is he crying.
"I hate myself." Zack's wobbly voice let out the pain that he was holding. His sniffles were like the sound of his heart shattering. I closed it gently. I can't give in. I can't. I quickly walked into my room and waited. My phone rang and I got up to get it. I picked it up from the nightstand and answered.
"Hello." I said softly.
"I'm coming earlier." Quin said and then hung up quickly. I stood there for a minute.
"He didn't just do that." I said in annoyance.
The maid's new someone was coming so they just let him in and brought him to my room.
"Did you know we live almost exactly next to each?" Quin's face said smirking. He sat down at the small coffee table with me. The maids placed down drinks and snacks then left the room.
"Where would you like me to put my jacket?" Quin asked.
"Wow someone has manners?" I said smirking.
"Yeah yeah yeah. Where do I put it though? Seriously." Quin asked. I took it from him and placed it gently on my bed and sat back down at the coffee table. We began our tutoring session. Quin annoyed me a lot that night, but i'll admit i did have fun. It was around 10 p.m. and as I was reading out a question I realized Quin had fallen asleep. His face was still handsome and his hair was a little in his face. I brushed it away gently and smiled.
"Ciel-." Zack's voice behind me appeared with a sudden pause.
"What?" I asked turning around.
"Who is this?" Zack angrily spoke.
"Quiet down." I said.
"You are telling me to quiet down? Who is this kid?" Zack said yelling. I turned around to see Quin waking up.
"Yo." Quin said half asleep.
"Who the fuck are you?" Zack said getting ready to punch him but I stepped in front of Quin.
"You will not hurt Quin." I sternly said. Quin stood up.
"Listen man i don't know who you are, I didn't even know she had a boyfriend. I'm just here for tutoring." Quin shrugged.
"He isn't my boyfriend. More of a ex." I said side eyeing Quin. Zack backed up quickly.
"Ciel we need to talk." Zack said annoyed and he grabbed my wrist. Quin grabbed his arm.
"Did the lady say she wanted to speak to you?" Quin said seriously. Zack and him stared at each other and the tension was brewing.
"It's fine." I said to Quin. Quin let go of Zack and Zack smirked at Quin, taunting him. Zack led me out into the hallway and to his room. He closed the door behind us.
"Ciel. I didn't mean to hurt you. I can do better. I swear." Zack pleaded.
"How do I know if this is true?" I said crossing my arms.
"I swear on everything, I can't bear to see another man in your room." Zack spoke softly.
"I am tutoring him."
"I don't care!"
"Well, I do."
The bickering went on until I realized Quin walked out the house, slamming the door behind him. I facepalmed.
"Do you know how crazy you make me?" I asked Zack.
"I make you go mad just as much as you make me." Zack said grabbing my chin and lifting my face up to look at him. His eyes glistened that night. I couldn't hold back anymore. Our lips collided.
"Ciel, I love you." Zack said as our lips parted. Those words drew me in. I pushed our lips together as our tongue dance around. My moans grew as he groped me all over. He unzipped himself and that night we had sex. It was amazing. I haven't came in 2 years until now. His groans his body movements were passion again. That sex was a good I miss you being spoken from our bodies.
After we finished he laid beside me holding my hand.
"Do you really love me?" I questioned.
"I always have. I stopped having sex a year ago because all I could think about was you and how badly I hurt you." Zack replied.
"You missed me?" I asked as he held my hand tighter.
"Every single fucking day." Zack mumbled. He let go of my hand and put his arms around me. He hugged me tightly as our soft talks turned into slumber.