Letter .5

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by Sakura610

by Sakura610

11/21/22

So I had a mental breakdown today.... For a reason to do with family (my mother in particular) I mean she's a great lady but I feel like she almost thinks I'm supposed to be the copy, paste version of her since it wasn't like that with my sister and pretty much she compares herself to me in a way in like

I shut myself in the bathroom and heard her say "I don't/didn't go around in just a bra"
P.S by that is the reason for my break down I'm just tired of hearing her and my sister say "go put a shirt on" and I know I should but I'm still expire meting with my sexuality, identity and style

And what I feel comfortable in my own skin right now is just wearing a bra and sweatpants and it's not like I wear just that in public also my dad has no problem with it so why does it matter what I wear in the comfort of MY OWN HOME like I don't mind wearing shirts I just fin it more comfortable without one at home and isn't it good that a girl likes wearing bras cause that's like one of the biggest problems that mother can't get there teens to wear bras and I really like wearing them I mean I she's going for decency but it's just are house hold most of the time and you parents have seen you're entire body when you're a baby so what's the big problem with seeing cleavage on you're youngest

And not to mention but during my break down all I did was shame my body and self because times aren't back when my mother was a kid and she had no insecurities or types of anxiety to think about and she even said that to me like "When I was a kid I just wore what I wanted not worrying about what other thought" well guess fucking what! This isn't the Era when you were a kid and only to genders existed. It's now time! It's fucking 22 almost 23 thing have changed!! I'm not some perfect pretty little girl, I'm a fucking confused goth! That doesn't feel right in the shoes I'm standing in!. Not like I'm trans I'm not but more like I'm trying to find my body but without everything that can go into being trans.....

I'm done..

TYPING! That didn't end right but nothing does so good night everyone 🤍

Sincerely
Sakura

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