I hate the way you talk
the way you look
your fat
your acne
your upper arms
and your thighs
I hate the way you ramble
you won't ever shut the fuck up
you always have to be right
and you always have to say what's on your mind
I hate the way you love
you fall so easily
trust so easily
and don't leave people until they make you suicidal
I hate the way you scream
at everything
inside your head
into your pillow
at your parents
I hate your body hair
why can't you just be pretty?
I hate the way you lie
to your therapist
family
friends
yourself
telling them everything will be alright
there's nothing to worry about
I'm not breaking down
I hate the way you eat
as if it's the end of the world
handful after handful
candy
ice cream
junk food
never considering the harm
you know you're fat
I hate the way you make friends
always far away
trusting too easily
getting ghosted
betrayed
left on read
constantly
I hate the way you spend money
you almost go broke
sometimes you do
you already have so much shit
grow up
I hate your relationship with your mother
arguing
shouting
cussing
I hate that you have mental illness
bipolar
anxiety
depression
mania
suicidal
a cutter
listlesness
anger issues
jealousy
binge eating
starving
eating disorder
oversleeping
insomnia
I hate your hyperfixations
they're fucking dumb
why do you have to be obsessed with things?
You're fucking embarrassing
I hate your sleep
the schedule
not being able to go to sleep
or stay asleep
exhaustion
constant napping
I hate your anxiety
yapping
counting
shaking
can't sit still
panic attacks
I mostly hate the way you treat yourself
like you are nothing
but sometimes
I wish you were gone
Note:
I know this one was intense. I promise I'm a-okay, all my poems are my ways of expressing every thought I have
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PoetryI will flag some things as 18+ on their chapter title so you can skip those ones if you want- 18+ is for major mental health topics such as suicide, attempts, cutting, death, ptsd, etc.
