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well its been a while since grace had even talked about christina.she had been on her own lately
.thinking about anything to keep her mind off her.

grace was standing at the conter top staring at the book christina had left open.grace always stares at it everytime she goses to the kitchen.and usually tends to lose time while stareing at the tear stains left in the book.
its been over a year since grace has moved the book or even been to christinas room.everything was still the same as always but empty. grace has tend to distance her from people lately.

graces boyfriend had come over to comfort her before well he tried but she wouldent open the door. she was to busy staring at the book always repeating what happend in her head.
over and over like a broken record player always stuck at one part.she hasent eaten in days but she has been thinking.
grace finnaly got the courage to go into christinas room. as she opened the door she got what was a wiff of christinas perfume.as she walked in she saw that rosemary had no food in her bowel. she fed her and talked to her about the problem like it was christina she was talking to.grace had gotten up and walked toward christinas bed,and sat down she stared blankly and a hanging picture on the wall.intill all the thoughts and memories came to her like a hoard of monsters attacking her every move.her head in her hands and viloent burning tears running down her face.grace had gotten up and started to throw things at the walls.she had lost all controll of her emotions.she was ripping the wallpaper,and tearing the books from the shelfs curseing at the sight of it. she was yelling christinas name.once she had sorta calmed down she slid aginst a wall and started whispering her name over and over again "CHRISTINA  HOW COULD YOU" she yelled as she slammed her hands aginst the floor. she was a mess and she knew it.she had gotten up and looked around the room.it was a complete dissaster and she hated it.she walked over to the rabbit cage,and picked it up and sat it in the hallway then walked to christinas door and locked it.she picked up the cage and sat it in the living room.then looked at the front door and back down at her shoes.she had gotten a idea but it wasnt a good one.she prepared a bag and said her goodbyes then walked out the doors and into the woods.it was the first time grace has been outside in years since christina had died. as she was hikeing throught the woods she found the perfect tree to preform the idea.she grabed some stuff from her bag and went towards the tree she set up the rope and then sat down to write a note on a peice of paper. it said "please dont be mad when you see me. i hate myself for not knowing. not knowing about christinas problems im sorry,im so fucking sorry.
love~grace
she had taped it to her stomache then climbed on a plastic chair and got into the rope.grace was trying to kill herself but failed when the rope snaped and she had fallen to the floor.she was done trying and went home and laid down on her bed petting rosemary .staring at the celling.she thought to her self "what if i try tomorow?."and thats what grace did but it still dident work.so she walked into her bathroom and opend a cabniet full of christinas pills. grace took the rest of the anti-depressents into her hand and swallowed them. then she laid down on her bed and closed her eyes for the rest of her life