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6

Dabi pov.

I woke up to a cold skinned body --but the person was alive and the only reason I knew that was because there pulse was against my ear--. At first I thought it was my mother, who used to cuddle with me after training sessions and murmur short nothing's in my ear when she put ice on the burns. Then I remember where I am and how Mother is in a mental institution. I roll off the person and is ready to blast them with fire before I saw light blue hair that looked white. What? Oh crap.
Shigaraki was in my bed. What happened? I feel myself relaxing as I watched Shigaraki's chest move.
Shigaraki came into my room after I had just woke up from a nightmare. He hadn't pried to know what my nightmare was he just hugged me and we fell asleep.
I mean nothing bad had happened so I guess we're good. I look around my room and see the books that litter it. Sighing, I get up from my comfortable place in my warm bed and start picking up books. I put them in the drawers of my desk and most in my closet. I pick up some clothes on the floor and but it in the hamper.
Other than those little things it was clean.
I crawled back into bed and got a safe distance away from Shiga. I played on my phone for a few minutes before being tugged towards Shiga. To say I was mildly surprised was an understatement. His light colored hair was covering his face and half of his nose. His gloved hand (covering every finger except two) was tugging lightly on my shoulder.

Gay
Mother fucking
Panic

All I could say is that my temperature went skyhigh and my face was more red than the jackasses( his father) hair.
Some bitchy voices scream that he is thinking about someone else. I honestly do, but don't care if he's thinking about someone else. I sigh, 'oh well. I guess we will see, huh?'
I am overthinking it. He's probably just cold. We was cuddling before I woke up, and I am pretty warm.
I mean normal people tend to get just before cold when they sleep, on a good day I get just warm and still manage to go to sleep without being to hot. With Shigas body always cold, his cuddles is a win-win for both of us. He gets heat and I get the cold skin that makes my body less hot.
Okay I just had this weird ass thought. I could have gotten surgery for the burns and not turned into a villain. After I removed the burns I could have left with mother, Fuyumi, Natso, and Shoto.
But if I hadn't turned into a villain I would have left Jin and never would have met the LOV.
UGH. Sometimes I wish I didn't overthink. I am kind of glad I became a villain because : 1 me and my best friend are not in abusive house holds.
2 I will take down Endeavor and reunite with my family. 3 I have a crush on who I am sure will treat anyone that they love with respect and kindness.
Reasons why I am not so happy with my choices: 1 I left them with him. 2 I did not take anyone with me except my best friend. 3 my social anxiety,( I would always let someone else do the talking.)
Being a villain has many pros and cons, in all honesty. When people see a villain, they think 'omg what a fucking monster!'
But do they ever think about what that villains been through. They'll deny it, though, so there is no reason to try to tell someone. A villain can't just go up to a civilian and say, ' I have been through shit you wouldn't understand unless you was there and what was happening was happening to you. That's why I am like I am now.'
The civilian would call the heros and the villain would either die or go to jail. Maybe, if they are lucky, they get away.  Not every villain gets away.
Civilians and heros will drag someone's name in the mud and hurt them, but do they ever think that 'hey this dudes got a heart to and he's breathing and blinking. So why am I doing this to this poor misunderstood person?'
No they never think that, do they? They think we can bounce back and give our best. Everyone has their own trauma. Its just how they deal with it.

Being a villain was one of my hardest decisions of my life but the one hardest was leaving my family and my siblings. I couldn't take it. I was weak.

Okay sorry. I haven't updated in a while. Im losing motivation but I am not at the same time. That probably doesn't even make sense. Anyway if your reading this, thank you so much and enjoy. I will try to update as soon as possible!!!