SUN&MOON ONESHOTS *+more!*

Sun/Moon X Reader

Kinda a continuation of the last one.

TW FOR THE FOLLOWING
IMPLIED SEWERSLIDE
Intrusive thoughts
Overthinking

As the author I'm literally in a bad state and need some kind of support. So as any *NORMAL* person would, i decided to write a fanfic. Lol. Sarcasm.

Again as the author I struggle with these two and I really need to release some of my emotions out so I'm sorry if this is heavy for you

Please don't read if you can't handle this.

This may be short btw

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I continued to cry into my arms. I felt so alone, so out of place. So overwhelmed. I feel like a failure. I've grown up into a fucking a child. And I don't wanna walk everyday feeling shitty anymore. Please just..

There's so many thoughts going through my head. Why cant I be enough? Please don't leave me. How many people would notice? Am I okay? I feel horrible. I'm so out of place. Why haven't we been talking to them?

I find out that most of these thoughts start circulating around my head once I realized something.

No, I refuse to say it. It's in the past now, so why should I bring it up again now?

"Fucking god.. I swear, everyone's growing tired of me.." I snuggled into my blankets, crying into them. Sniffling, I felt even worst. I just keep thinking how I can be better. "Why am I the way I am?" I questioned myself, holding my face with my hands. I stare blankly into the darkness, feeling my tears fall from my eyes.

That was until I feel a heavy weight go between my sides. I shot back up, uncovering my face. I was mortified because I was just crying and I felt someone else on my bed.

"Woah, take it easy.."

(I'm fucking listening to mitski rn and Francis forever came on. Y'all better know I'm already crying my eyes out. Lol.)

My eyes fell onto both Sun and moon. They waved at me. I feel tears form more. "We didn't want to leave you alone tonight.." they insist, laying me back down. I didn't fight back this time. Instead, I simply let them exist next to me as I bawl my fucking eyes out. I needed this moment. I needed this moment to let out my emotions and I feel hopeless.

As I did cry, they stayed by my side. No, they never said anything. But they held me close to them, massaging my back or they'd take my hand and trace shapes on it.

I silently cried, until I couldn't cry anymore. What else am I supposed to do? There's no future for me in this world. I'm surprised I even made it this far. I never wanted to live this long. So.. what's the point in trying? To make myself even more miserable.

Sun and moon slowly pulled my towards them, wrapping their arms around me. It was getting late, I checked the time. 3:10 Am. I should be getting to bed, but I still feel like I deserve.. something. I don't know what. Maybe it's just me.

I wished I still had tears left to cry. The pain in my chest didn't leave yet.

However, it began to feel warmer as I felt sun and moon breathed in and out. They held me close, still massaging my back. I couldn't help but just try to forget what I was crying about. I feel them softening to their touch. I breathed in. I breathed out. I inhaled. I exhaled.

Finally, I decided to take this moment and finally sleep. I succumbed to my tired state, and sleep throughout the night. However, there was one thought that repeated over and over again. That thought was a wish.

"I wish you were real."

I mutter to myself, clinging to my blanket and pillow. Imagining it as if these things cared about me, getting it soaked in my own bitter tears. My mind goes off, realizing the real situation of this world. However, it chooses to ignore it.

I turned to my side, grabbing my sun and moon plushies and holding it close to my chest. "You guys are the only ones who understand me..." I whispered, closing my eyes once more. I drifted to sleep, my headache lifting from my head.

Goodnight guys.