Disenchanted

rest.

it snowed today. for the first time in years. it looks so pretty. you would've loved it. i've just been sitting here, staring out the window, thinking of our best memories together. if i had to live this life all over again, i would if it meant i could be with you. i would go through every moment of pain, every tear, every heartache, just to see you smile at me. i've been fading in and out of black. i've always been so scared of death, not knowing what happens. i've had to distract myself from thinking about it so many times. but today, i feel okay. i can feel the soft ghost of you here, putting your arm around me, telling me that everything is going to be alright. finding you was the best thing that could've happened to me and i'm so glad i got to spend my life with you by my side. this will be the last page that i write. i don't know what happens after this. maybe if there's a next life i'll find you there. maybe we can be together again. but whatever happens, heaven has already been a place on earth with you. you've been in my heart since the day i met you and you will always be. i love you more than there are words to write. goodnight, my love.

as he laid there, the snow fell softly onto the window as the black cat curled up on his lap. soft wind passed through the air outside until the cat fell asleep. it was silent.