Finding Myself In Seoul

Flowers

Juniper's POV

Day of the Fan Signing: Sept. 3rd

I wake up to the sun shining beautifully through the clouds. Sunbeams graced me with warmth and light to start a new day. I stretch and reach for my phone. I'm shocked to see I have a text message.

6:00 AM
Joon: Good morning Sunshine! I don't know if messaging you like this is too forward, but when I woke up this morning you were the first person I wanted to greet.

Butterflies danced their way into my stomach. I pulled the blankets tighter around me and grinned. Damn he messaged me pretty early, what time is it now? I glance at the clock and my eyes widen. It's already 10:30! I shoot up in bed, Shit, I hope he's not upset I haven't answered him back yet. I hurridly send him a reply.

Juniper: It's totally fine! I'm so sorry I haven't answered you yet! I just woke up actually. This comfy hotel bed and the adventure I had yesterday must have really worn me out. HaHa

I think for a minute after sending it and message again.

Juniper: Was I really the first person you thought of this morning?

I stare at the screen for a few minutes waiting for a response. After not getting one I sigh, a bit deflated that I may have missed my chance, and get out of bed. He must be busy. That's alright, I need to jump in the shower anyway and prepare for the day.

I put on some music over Bluetooth and hop in the shower. I have a long rest of the day ahead of me. I need to finish choosing an outfit for the fan signing, get some lunch, and maybe do a bit of shopping to pass the time. I look at the array of body products I brought with me. I may be a big woman, but at least I can make myself smell amazing and look my best for later. After browsing my selection, I go with a smell set that's floral and sweet. I wash myself up and hear my phone ding from across the bathroom. I wrap the towel around myself and start my hair care routine. Having long curls is a chore, but it's worth it. I may not have many outstanding attributes like the beautiful, smaller women I see every day, but I have amazing hair, beautiful eyes, and an ass for days. I smile reassuringly at myself in the mirror and finish up by diffusing my curls and applying the finishing products. By the time I'm done with my hair care, brushing my teeth, and doing my skincare, I completely forgot about getting a message.  When I pick up my phone and look at it, I realize it's Joon.

Joon: Of course you were! A beautiful personality like yours is hard to get out of my mind.

I deflate a little more. Dating as a big woman is very hard. Men either want to just use me for sex and never show me off or take me out, or they end up cheating on me with someone smaller and prettier because, in the end, I was too "heavy" for them. I know he means well, but hearing my personality being the only thing he picks to point out as beautiful is kind of hard to read. Since my last relationship, I made up my mind for the next man I truly give my heart to, to not only love my personality, but think I'm beautiful and sexy and everything in between, I deserve to feel like I'm truly wanted and not just someone they can hook up with or "try out a big girl." My phone buzzes again as I'm lost in my thoughts.

Joon: Not to mention you are absolutely gorgeous. What I wouldn't do to see your eyes and your smile right now.

A warm blush moves through my body and I smile. Okay, maybe we'll give him a bit of a chance. He may be completely out of my league, but what could it hurt? Besides, we are just acquaintances right now. I hope he becomes my first friend here. My heart has a lot of walls around it. It's going to take him a lot to tear them down.