me and life

march 2009

03:22
26.november,2022

So how do i Beginn how U Guys arleady Know my Name is Shirin what U dont Know is that i'm only 13 years old but belive me when i say my mind is way older then 13. Others Teenage Girls at my age have a perfect Family and maybe even a Boyfriend pretty clothes and a normal Life, Well lets Just say my Life is Not normal, I'm Not normal

Lets beginn on the day i was Born, march 6 2009, i would say this is the day everything went wrong, lets keep It Short and unemotional, i was Born,my biological mother didnt want me Bc she thought i was ugly and she also wanted to Stick to her drugs and alcohol , Same Thing with my dad  hes criminal, I dont really Know one of them i Just Know their names i dont even Know how old they are now i Just Know my biological mother has now 4 Kids and a new Boyfriend. I live at my aunts she was Always there for me she was a great mother she Always used to read Something every night  for me when i was little and i Got everything i wanted, Well Kind of everything. one Thing i Always wanted was a dad but she couldnt give me that Bc shes lesbian i'm okay with that she and her girlfriend raised me together but there was Always Kind of Something Missing in my Life. Well my "great " Life changed when me and my best friend Jasmin broke Up the contact Bc she found a new friend i was Always Kind of lets say manipulativ and very Jealous, one time we found a new friend and somehow they both Got very Close and i Got left Out so i took Kind of Revenge, my other aunt Had one friend and her daughter was throwing a Birthday Party Bc she Turned 14, so i thought when i Go there maybe i will find some Friends, i was never a really extroverted Person Bc i Always Got bullied when i tried to be myself,then i met Jasmin and It was me and her against the world, really cute Till Angelina ruined It, so i thought i wouldnt mind a new friend so i went to that Party and me and that Girl Alia Got really good alonge with eachother so we became Friends with eachother (Spoiler Alert: Bad idea) so as i Said we became friends and everything went fine Till that one Girl Julia spread roumours around that i Stole her friend and Jasmin and Angelina belived that so Jasmin broke Up contact with me, my world broke into very small pieces i lost my only friend Well Not really my only Bc i Had Alia Well i dont really wanna get into Detail with that Alia Story so  lets keep It Short, she Lied and Fell in Love with my aunts Gf  (shes 50) and used me to be around her ,Lied to me that her Cousin raped her, Stole and drunk alcohol, she was Like evie from the movie 13thriteen i was her Tracy i played with Barbies before i met her, Well   at some Point they Loved her more then me i was getting really really Mad about that, so one day everything came Out all the Lies and the Things that happend and everybody Lied to me It was hell when i found Out my aunts Gf Fell in Love with her too bc she was Just 2 years older then me i Hope U understand what i'm saying with that i broke Up the contact with Alia so i Had No Friends litlreally No one and my aunt went crazy she Got insane and she and her Gf are fighting since one year shes such a bitch now i dont even wanna live in this House anymore. But i dont have a choice its Like a prison, my aunt Thinks people are stalking us and there are people in our phones or Walls, how i Said she went crazy,

Well that was my Story and now i'm laying Here my aunt is fighting in the room next to me with her Gf and i'm Just Kind of there i have to Clean Up the whole kitchen everyday and i dont even Go to school Bc they dont care about me its    fucked Up

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