Never let it go

To My Love. 1

"Buluda! How can you do that to me? Why? Why? "
I woke up by the nightmare again. This nightmate used to come to me after she went away. But after 10 years they are coming again.
I checked the time and it is nearly 4 a.m.
I am never a this much morning person and moreover when I work overtime.
Anyways I went to bathroom to finish my business. I open the curtains saw a faint light.
I wore my jogging suit and walk out of the house. I was walking mindlessly. Continuously the dream was coming around my head.
Ten years ago
Paromita and her family came in our neighborhood. I was playing cricket at that time. A taxi came and stopped a few distance away a woman with her two child came out. I felt a stare at me. And saw a little girl. I wink at her and she ran away to her house. There I saw her first.
After coming home I got to know they are our neighbors. I saw my mother talking with her mother and she was staring at me. I knew she got crush one me. It was very normal to me. I am always being handsome.

Days after days seasons after seasons get  away. I knew her feelings were growing.
Some part of liked her but not convinced much. She was a homey, chubby girl.I used to flirt yo her sometimes.Her shy face was a really fun to me at that time.One evening when me my di and she were at our terrace. I accidentally kissed her. I knew I fucked up. But di didn't saw anything. She ran away. I said sorry to her and said I didn't mean it, I saw how her face which was red a moment ago was becoming  sad. She said okay and go away. After someday everything get normal. After a week my Di's marriage was near. Everyone one busy Rina aunty means Paro's ma was working like it's her daughter's wedding as my mother was a bit sick then. But then that black day came before the night of the marriage I was talking with my friend in my room.But I heard something outside my room and I saw her crying. Cheeks and eyes we're puffy and nose , I was a freak to think like she was looking cute. She ran away. I wanted to talk to her but she  was just avoiding me. Which was wrecking my heart for the first time for any girl. After the wedding she went to her aunt's place and next month they moved Singapore. I was a mess for some days.

I came out of my trance and looked at my watch it's already 7 a.m. I get back at home. I have become quite this days . My mother gave me a confused look but again didn't ask anything. She knows what's going on. I got ready and did my breakfast. I straight went to my company.

Little did I know what my fate has decided for me.