Last days at waters

GRACE

"God... We thank you for safe journey... We thank you for your goodness...we thank you for healing melody..Amen!" Mum prayed as we stood in a circle in our house at Texas. Mum has always been known as a religious person... "You guys should unpack and come downstairs for dinner by 7..David come and help me with my bags" dad said. Skipping two steps, I make my way upstairs because I can't wait to lie on my lovely bed and sleep because the journey was tiring and before I could say "jack robbinson".. Am already in oblivion.
The afternoon seems cool a little or maybe it's the coldness of my room that woke me up.." Ding..ding.." I have a message and it's from school "dear GCSE students, you are expected to pay for the registration fee before the end of this month.. Failure to do so won't be allowed to write the examination".. What!!!..I said clearing my eyes... Today is 27th..the month is going to end 30th..."OMG!!..how will I tell my parents this..its freaking like $1000 in addition to the fee am going to pay to stay in the dorm which is $600..gosh I don't know what to do" I said roughening my hair..its looks like I'll have to summon the courage to tell mum and dad about it if not I'll have to say goodbye to my dreams of studying in canada.I head downstairs and it looks like they are already talking about it.
"No!!,No!!,No!" Dad said ranting from one place to another."calm down baby" mum said to him with a fierce looking face and with a red face dad said"How on earth will I be able to..........."not being able to complete his sentence because mum interrupts him shouting "how on earth will you what Todd Wilson...I have lived with you for 20 years now..I have tried to tolerate your stupid anger issues and I don't know how long I can continue...you knew about the expenses we were going to face when we come back to Texas and yet you went to pay for those tickets didn't you? And now you're here ranting......." My job, I loosed my fucking job Darla..in case you've forgotten that was 8 months ago and I took you guys to Atlanta because I promised before I loosed my good damn job..understand? Dad said shaking angrily, hiting his hand on the table and he looks like he's going to beat my mum very soon.."oh please don't tell me that" mum said saucily and this time dad stands up ready to beat up mum.."daddy no!!!..please no!!" I said already crying.They didn't know that have being watching them argue.Dad looks at me with a face that said "go to your room now or I'll start with you".. So I ran upstairs trembling.
" God!!..what will I do, how will my parents pay...I can't let my dreams go down the drain" I am thinking as I look for that silvery sharp object that eases my pain...."ring!!..ring!!"oh!!!...not again, whose calling me this time around..am so not in the mood. "Hello, who am I speaking to please?" I asked..."hi melody, its me Jane...OH !.MY!.GOSH!..I miss you so much" said Jane who is one of my best of friends after Helena. I love her so much and I love touching her fat cheeks.."uhnn!! Jane I miss you too..how are you? I asked totally ignoring the fact that I wasn't in the mood before."I'm good...aren't you coming for GCSE lessons..the class is really funny" she asked. "Humm I don't know jane am just hoping my parents are able to pay for it before the month ends"I told her. " Don't worry, they will because I just heard that they've given additional one week for people to pay up". Jane said.." Well that's a relief, see you in school" I said."Thank God I didn't do it" I said talking and looking a the silvery sharp object like it was alive.
This silence between I and David has to stop now!!..I can't take it again." Hey David" I said as I walk into his room slowly so I can duck in case he wants to throw something at me but to my surprise he his calm.
Then he spoke saying"Melody Wilson , before you diagnose yourself with depression or low self esteem, first make sure that you aren't in fact just surrounded by ass holes.. Melody Wilson life is too short to live the same day twice...Have the courage to make the change, the strenght to......I interrupt completing his saying because he once told me this when I was 6 "the strength to see you through it and faith that everything will turn out for the best".." Then why do you keep hurting yourself melody?... You make me angry a lot".David said .I move closer to him, sat by his side and said"its just this feeling David, I get sad for no reason, get really empty for no reason and when people ask I can't explain. Its just feels like I need someone I never met..its like I need someone who doesn't need me. The loneliness hovers me then I isolate myself on purpose.. David, sadness becomes my only friend then I start hating myself and want everyone to leave me alone but at the same time David, I want someone to hug me and tell me things will be okay.. David don't you know that felling when you don't know the fuck you're feeling"........"I understand Mel, I love you and I want you to be strong " David said as he gives me a really tight hug."I love you too David and I'll be strong" I said with a faint smile as he roughened his baby sisters hair with his hand and smiles
Deep deep down, I know things are still gonna get fucked up.